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Today my birthday eve..

I had date with my friends to TS..

Birthday suppose happy?

But why I didnt feel happy at all?

Whatever la..

I knew my lovely are preparing for my 18th Birthday..

Thanks you all,really..

HATE YOU!!!

Today thought can meet with Bro..
Tuition time can't concentrate at all,
keep on looking watch..
He had promise that after tuition come and find me,
but he lie..
LIE AGAIN!!!
Haiz~
Disappointed..
Feel upset,
tears dropping in heart..
Yesterday said bring me go relaxing have dinner with me,
BUT..
Lolx..

10/10

Number 10 is MY FAVOURITE NUMBER..
10 is a number that very MEANINGFUL for me..
So 10/10 is MY FAVOURITE'S DAY..
But today seem very bad luck..
Im lost my ear ring in the morning..
I LOVE it must,
and i find quite a long time only found it..
Because of SEARCHING it,
i didnt sleep at all..
T.T~
I get back my phone,
but it CANNOT stay beside me anymore..
I LOVE this phone forever..
SAD..
I have NO MOOD at all,
and GRUMPY too..
Because of my younger BRO,
i didnt have enough time have my lunch,
just ate a pieces of bread..
Tuition time,
i feel NOT WELL..
10pm+ wanted out YUMCHA with friends,
but give mum BLAME,
then didnt go yumcha..
I get a SURPRISE from my friends..
1 is from Penand's friends..
I get a "POS EXPRESS" BOX from they..
It is a quite MATURE shirt for me in black colour..
Another ones was from zwei,
it was a PADINI BAG..
Thanks a lot ya,"BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT"..
Muackx~~
I LOVE it much..
Haha~
Beside it i gain A CLOTHER from my aunt too..
It also black in colour..
Thankx~

Opinion

The world have 100 000 000 people,
but want find a people that really match with,
know you true,caring,treat you honestly..
It not that easy,
actually can say is very tough..
So if found it,
must treasure..
but i think it wouldnt happen on me..

Even how important you for him/her,
how LOVE you,he/she said,
is cant represent that he/she can sacrifice himself/herself because of you..
Human is selfish,
That's true..
So must know to analyse what is true and lie..
It is to protect own self..

Promise..
If cant fulfil..
Please dont try to make promise with other..
Promise is a mendacity and falseness..
It can make people excited and happy..
But when become falsehood,
it will hurt people deeply and seriously..

P/S:Except own self nobody can trust..

09/10

Tired~
Because of somethings happened,
yesterday didnt sleep..
Thanks Cbeng..
You had accompany me whole night..
Because of You,
i feel better and relaxing now..
Sorry too..
Because disturbing You whole night,
make You lack of sleep..
Hehe~
Afternoon time,
I went to meet with friends..
Because of it,
had quarrel with mum..
We had spend whole day to make cake..
1 cheese cake and 1 sponge cake..
The cheese was too creamy and soft..
It smell make me wanted vomit..
But the Nyin said it very nice to eat..
The sponge cake not enough flour,
so very liquid,
failed to write to "0"..
Then we decided go buy flour..
Half way,
hungry then went out had lunch,
and bought the flour at Bintang..
Finally we sucess..
Nyin and Zii 1st time make,
see the cake succeed,
they feel very happy and satisfaction..
6.15pm+went home..
Quickly take a bath then prepared to tuition..
7pm+Zwei came and fetch me..
Tired~
Nothing share..
Bye~
Tomorrow 10/10..
my favourite's day..

YOU!!!

WASTED!!!
I really dont know why?!
Why should make the situation until like this?!
YOU are very greedy!!!
I had already do a lot on YOU,
but YOU still keep on complain,
said that i didnt did anythings at all..
Make me feel disappointed on YOU at all..
I think i wouldnt be stupid anymore,
because i know how much i did for YOU,
YOU wouldnt know and never know..
YOU totally make me heart death on YOU..
I really try my best sucess what YOU wanted me do,
even nowaday have busy to prepare for SPM..
I really stressing,afraid on study,
YOU wouldnt know and didnt give me any support,
some more increasing my stress..
F**K..
Enough!!!

Memories~

(04/10)

Early then went to Sunway Lagoon..
I bring my little cousin CELEBRATE her BIRTHDAY..
She invited Zwei too..
We very STUPID dont know the way to Sunway Lagoon..
Sunway Lagoon bring me a lot MEMORY..
[2007]
Nyin,I and my senior(LuLu,BoBo,DXiang,Wyao and many)have the 1st Beach Volleyball match there..
That time i was 15 years old,whereas Nyin only 14 years old..
It was fun..
I LOVE Beach Vollyball from that time..
[2008]
This time with MY LOVELY GANG,U16 Boy team and senior too(Gary,AhBoon,Evon,Jane and so on)..
It was a UNFORGETABLE memory..
We together SWIM,PLAY FUN,HAVING MEAL,DO SOME 38 ACTION and many many..
I LOVE MY GANG FOREVER,
and thank GOD let me meet all of YOU..
Muackx~
[2009]
This year NOT with MY LOVELY GANG..
Because of some problem,
this year Beach Volleyball Match was CANCEL..
Feel SAD,T.T~~~
It was the LAST CHANCE can make OUR together have fun,
BUT.. ...
Haiz~~
Actually i have no mood go Sunway Lagoon..
On the way i received friend's text that they have GATHERING,
make me some more no mood at all..
I try BEAR UP myself dont want effect my little cousin sis and Zwei..
Zwei and i TAKE TURN accompany my little cousin sis..
I feel REGRET didnt bring the VOLLEYBALL together..
I saw a group HANDSOME(other country,180cm+)were playing ball,
i run there and hope to play with them..
BUT they already 6 people a group,
so i waiting there..
While waiting,i found some of them know spiking..
Haha~
VERY BAD LUCK,
my phone was DROP into water and CANT FUNCTION..
Haiz~
After it,
we had dinner(BBQ..FORGOT the name of restaurant)..
We order quite a lot..
I ate 1 AND HALF OF BOWL of rice..
Hehe~
I bought 3 pieces of clother at PIDINI CONCEPT STORE,
1 piece T-shirt at CATCH UP..
Today had SPEND a lot money..
SUPER VERY TIRED~
Bye~

Friendly Match~
(25/09)

12pm then reached school..
U15 boys early then waiting at school..
I feel HAPPY and EXCITED..
since MSSD,
we U18 girls have not play ball together..
While waiting,
we digging there,
it was fun..
1.30pm+we start our "journey" to ISKL..
It is an INTERNATIONAL school,
students who study there quite a lot from other country..
JEALOUS~
Haha~
2pm++ arrived..
But ISKL having lesson,
so we had waiting until 3pm after they finish lesson..
The U18 guys very CUTE,
they keep walk around and "KAP" lenglui..
Haha~
Maybe warm up not enough,
so i have not play as well as i can on the 1st game,
i did a lot MISTAKE,
sure make my teammate DISAPPOINTED..
Haiz~
Anyway i still try my best,
even some of them already LOST the CONFIDENT on me..
I have no mood and spirit play at all,
after the 1st game..
But i BEAR UP myself don't want effect them..
At the last we won,
but i have no any feeling,
Just feel TIRED..
After thought can have a game will U15 guys(ISKL),
but they rush of time..
We took a lot PICTURE at there..
It was a MENORABLE'S MEMORY..
On the way went school,
we didn't silent at all,
keep make NOISY and CRAZY there..
After that,
we having dinner together too..
Very happy~
2nd round~
We yumcha at NAZA..
I was SUPRISE and get SHOCK,
when meet with BoonBRO..
He look MATURE and FRIENDLY..
Hehe~
1am only went home..
Haha~
TREASURE what we having now,
even have SADNESS,TEAR,QUARREL..
1 month+ going then we have to DETACH..

UNFORGETABLE'S MEMORY~
(19/09)

Today 10am+ then woke up..
Prepare go town EARLY..
After bring Lun to tuition,
then 12.30pm+ go town..
Town's traffic very jam..
I 12.40pm reached town,
but i 2.30 somthing only found a 'CAR PARK',
some more i just park the car beside the road..
AWESOME~
Today had lunch alone and quite rush..
2.50pm+ meet with Cbeng,
I bring her to see something at the STYLO there..
After it 3.20pm+ went tuition..
I feeling SUPER HAPPY and EXCITED,
we had trainning with SENIORS after tuition..
When i was tuition,
i received a msg that training cancel,
because RAINNY..
LOLX~
DISAPPOINTED..
RAINNY is NOT a reason,excuse that can effected the trainning cancel..
Luckyly when i was finish my tuition time,
didnt have rainny anymore..
Thanks GOD..
Before thought Gary BRO sit bus to town,
so call him come shop find me and walk to school together..
I was shock,he DRIVING~
It's was the 1st time i sit my Gary BRO's car..
Im better than Lisa,
she sat Xyang's car(He drive quite fast,rush and dangerous)..
Haha~
Today was very FUN,
even just only had 1 coach+6 player..
If our group have come sure more and more fun..
We had long time didnt play ball with those SENIORS..
While waiting for coach,
Seniors they played BbaLL,
Lisa and i were stand beside as SUPPORTER..
Because of some 'EFFECT',
we started our WAR(Beach's style VbaLL match)..
It's between TzeXiang's group(Xyang anf Fsan) and Gary's group(Lisa and I)..
After 2 games COACH had join our group..
Finally my BRO's group WON..
My leg INJURED and now had a WOUND there,
pain T.T~
But it's VALUABLE,
we all ENJOYED the games..
Haha~
We played until 7pm+,
Then had dinner at BEACH,
i have no apetite just order a bowl mushroom soup as my dinner..
After it had 2nd round at NASA..
I went home and took a bath,
then 10pm+ meet with them..
Because some 'REASON',
Lisa and i feeling bored and went home..
It was the 1st time we 2 yumcha back so EARLY..
Haiz~
Feeling Happy+Moody..
Dont know what's that feeling~
Hope to see YOU ALL SOON..
Miss YOU ALL~

DISAPPOINTED!!!
HATE!!!

UNCONCEIVABLE...

WHEN I CHANGING SHOES TIME,
YOU ASKING ME,
[IF I'M HAVE SMOKE,HOW YOUR FEELING?!]
THAT TIME,
I FEEL WEIRD AND I GET SHOCK,
JUST I DIDNT SHOW FRONT OF YOU..
I'M ASKED BACK YOU,
[YOU REALLY HAVE SMOKE?!]
YOU SAID [NO,JUST JOKE]..
WELL,I TRUST YOU AND TREAT IT AS JOKE..
BUT YOU ARE FAKE OUT..
I FEELING DISAPPOINTED ON YOU..
WHEN I HEARD THAT,
I REALLY CANT BELIEVE IT AND SHOCK,
YOU SMOKE..
I TELL MYSELF YOU WOULDNT LIKE THEY SAID..
BUT FINALLY I FOUND THAT ALL ARE 100% TRUTH,

BUT I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT..
I FEEL HEART BREAK,SAD,ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED,
BUT WHAT CAN I DO?!
SCOLD YOU,BLAME YOU?!
NO,I HAVE NO THAT QUALIFICATION TO DO ANYTHINGS ON YOU..
I SILENT THERE..
AFTER I HAD TRY ASK YOU,
HOPE YOU CAN TELL ME THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH IS YOU DIDNT SMOKE..
BUT...(THAT'S NOT I WANTED)
I HATE MOST ON IT..
I HOPE MY FREINDS WHO AROUND ME DIDNT HAVE TOUCH ON IT..
ESPECIALLY WHO I CARE MUCH..
WHAT I HAD SAID TO YOU,
HOPE YOU REALLY HAVE HEARD AND GO THINK..
I DISLIKE YOU SMOKE..

TAKE CARE YOURSLEF..

THAT'S ALL I CAN DO..

18/09

1st day of holiday.
Feeling bored..
Slept until 12pm+..
After shower then BLOGGING..
Hehe~
After Daddy came back then follow his out..
Because rush of time,
i had not eat anything since morning until night..
Tired~
Today had a bit LATE to tuition,
K.Lumpur traffic jam..
Lucky lesson have not start yet..
Hehe~
Today teacher give us do 'asrama penuh' TRIAL paper I..
Front of the paper quite EASY,
see the question then have answer already,
but quite a lot wanted calculate question.
im very LAZY calculate those question,
then wait my friends those calculate it and copy answer from them..
Am i smart?
Hehe~
After tuition then go YUMCHA..
I ate a lot things..
After had 'MAGGI GORENG',
still not yet full,
then order a 'ROTI KOSONG'..
Hehe~
Exam time had use a lot energy,
so that eat a lot..
But how i ate also wouldnt grow FATa bit..
WHY?!
Haiz~
When bill time,
Lisa said she treat me because... ...
Lisa's wallet BLOODING..
Thanks a lot,Lisa..
Haha~
Today after 12am only reached home,
but my parents didnt blame me at all..
Feel WEIRD about they action and response..
It's time to bed~
Bye~
Good night~
Have nice dream~

17/09

The tips that get from friends was out..
It was 100% same..
Thanks ya,my friends~
Hope can get high mark in this paper to RECOVER the paper II..
After exam,i back home take a bath..
Ohya,my friends follow me back too..
After had lunch then go fetch the TROUBLESOME PEOPLE..
Haha~
She had to sit for EST exam paper until 12.30pm..
Then we go jusco meet with Myee..
We had booking for singK at GREEN BOX..
Normally we Vball's GATHERING,
i will feel very EXCITED and HAPPY,
but today im NOT..
Why?!?!
What was going wrong?!?!
My heart is NOT linking with them anymore?!?!
Haiz~
Or maybe exam,
we had seldom join together have fun,chit-chat and so on,
so that the feeling CHANGED?!?!
After it,we had decide go back school play ball,
but sudden Lisa cant go,
after it Vivian and Weiwei too..
Haiz~
Just left me and Qwei wanted play ball,
then we went back school,
but UNLUCKY sudden rainny..
After fetch Vivian and Qwei school,
then went back home..
Today had no mood at all..
What had decided before holiday,
some had to CANCEL,
or else then SELF-ACTIVITY..
That's all,nothing share..
Happy Holiday~
Bye~

16/09

Dont know why even today didnt have to school,
but sill 5am+ then woke up without alarm..
Maybe had been ACCUSTOMED to it..
Haha~
But after also sleep again..
9am something then went out jogging with friends..
I just jog for 45minutes+,
because of some REASON..
Hehe~
After had a shower,
I msg Lisa and asked she when we should go bus stop,
and also the tuition time table,
cause PUASA the time table had a bit changed..
Mines time table had LOST..
Hehe~
Because of TRIAL EXAM,
we had missed 2 lesson(AddMaths'tuition),
We 2 had lost the latest time table,
so that keep asking ppl,
but no ones can give me answer..
Luckyly,Lisa found the time table at the end..
If not dont know how..
Hehe~
Today had install a lot knowledge inside brain..
I like here tuition most..
Before i totally HATE AddMath,
but now feel that it was NICE and FUN..
Even at school how CONCENTRATE on teacher's teach also cant get it,
but after i been here tuition,
i start INTEREST it and feel it not that TOUGH to solve it..
Hehe~
Feel HAPPY and it was UNBELIEVABLE that i had meet with my GARY bro in the bus..
He didnt changed a lot,
just look MATURE a bit..
And he seen like not that happy meet with me..
Haiz~
Is i think TOO MUCH on it or BRO already dont want me?
I feel a bit a bit SADNESS and DISAPPOINTED when heard something bout BRO,
and not from him is from other's mouth..
I am your sis what?!
Why must always get know about yours from other not from yourself?!
Feeling useless~
Tomorow Biology paper III,
I have to go prepare for it..
Bye~
Good Luck~

10/09

I was get shock,
when i open the paper and check..
What had i do yesterday really come out on paper II..
Some more the question 100% same,
the arrangement same also..
Wahx~
Feel happy 1st TIME can finish the whole paper and still have extra time to DOUBLE CHECK..
Haha~
But dont know how bout the result whether good..
I'm nt greedy,just have improve then enough..
Haiz~
Toromow exam until 10.10am then can back home rest..
Sejarah paper II..
I hate it..
This subject have to MEMORIZE all those are USELESS and BORING..
Luckly i have tips..
I just study all the tips,
other i didnt go and bother..
Hehe~
But just tips also can let me cant sleep tonight..
The tips have quite a lot..
Haiz~
So i decide just pick some of the tips are EASIER memorize and read..
Wahaha~
Lazy bud..

09/09

Yesterday only said that the tips are very ACCURATE..
DISAPPOINTED~
What i have prepared for poem didnt come out at all..
My Godness~
That's why,i only say cant too depend on tips..
Luckyly,'The Necklace' have given a text,
the answer can refer the text that given,
so still can answer a few question..
But the 'Monson History' dont have any text can refer,
must know the words,stanza meant,
that time i just can recall back a bit what had teacher said,
so i just can answer 3 of the question,
then other just simple write a answer..
Hehe~
Erm,the tips of BI paper I was accurate..
Speech really come out..
Haha~
Thanks God~
I just get to know,
Toromow AddtionalMath almost out from year 2005,2006 and 2008 SPM exam paper,
i dont have buy pass year paper to do..
I thought my AM WAITING DIE..
But my friend,Zwei have help me..
She take a book that have pass year question that with solution to me..
Thanks a lot ya,my friend~
Haha~
I started to do it,
i found i have a lot dont know to do,
i feel AFRAIND that time,
almost CRY and GIVE UP..
But i cant do that..
After i rest a while,
then i continue do that all question..
I hope my AM can get IMPROVE,
i really have WORK HARD on in subject..
Blessing me,please~

08/09

I'm really don't know how my friends they get all the tips bout this time exam..
The tips from my friends all was out on BM paper II..
My Godness~
I not trust it at all,
but luck i had read through all the tips from they..
Thanks a lot ya,my friends..
Aspecially MY VBALL GANG..
Haha~
Hope BM paper II can get HIGH MARK..
BM paper I quite DIFFICULT,
because all choices given i have not idea to do..
But at last i also have finish it..
Getting tired~
But must 'TAHAN' till end of the exam..
XinLu gambatehx~
I have to go prepare for tomorow paper..
Bye lo,friends~
Muackx~~

04/09

Today OVER SLEPT AGAIN..
Actually i had decide attent school late a bit,
because our school have celebration of MERDEKA,
but friends ask me come as usual..
During performance,had a guy sing until half song,
the "salong"that his wear was DROP..
The most FUNNY part is the guy didnt take case that his "salong" was dropping..
The whole hall also laughing on him that time,
including teacher..
He quickly walk away,didnt come out again..
Haiz~
Lisa and I keep laugh about it..
I CANT CONCENTRATE study at all at the time..
After it had sat for chemistry paper III..
Wuwu~
The experiment i read DIDNT COME OUT..
So cham..
I wrote all i know about that question asked,
then snap awhile..
Wow~
Yesterday physics paper I and II already out what had i spot..
Today also..
Hehe~
When i get the exam paper i quickyly open it and see whether the things i spot have come out..
1st quetion are... ...
2nd question are ask about Young's double slit..
3rd question is design experiment,it about focal length between... ...
Who had ask me yesterday,she/he must be very enjoy in answering the 2 question..
Haha~
Finally 2 sciences subjects was finish..
Today i had 100% MIND CLEAR,
i get all about teacher said during Biology tuition..
After tuition then invited by Lisa go Old Town YUMCHA..
Haha~
Actually,before already promise wanted out with other gang of friends,
but certain effect i RELEASE they aeroplane..
Hehe~
Sorry ya,My gang~

02/09

I over slept..
I woke up time already 6.30am..
My Godness..
Today sat for Chemistry paper I and II..
Yesterday thought attent school early,
then can call Lisa explain for me..
Haiz~
I HATE chemistry,
i dont like memorize those STUPID and USELESS equation..
I was BLANKING there when get the paper,
but other were start answering the paper..
Lolx~
I had GIVE UP on my chemistry(Trial)..
But i will try my best on SPM..
I have to go study my Physics and Chemistry,
tomorow both also paper III,
need memorize experiments..
T.T~
Normally,i seldom having meal at MCDonald..
Fast food is not good for healthy,
aspecially im a player,
so have to avoid to eat it ..
But today sudden have a feeling wanted eat McDonald,
before thought go pack and eat at home..
Hehe~
At front of McDonald,
i meet with friends who are long time didnt see..
Hyin,Beckham and a new friend(im sorry forget her nama)..
I feeling shock that time,
Beckh said have lunch at McDonald,
because Beckh had said dont like it..
And hor,i 1st time see they with school look,
damn weird..
Because nomally we together also trainning time wear sport,
the hyin some more wear long shirt inside..
She seem like so scare become black o..
At last i had lunch with them..
I dont like and dont want drink Coke,
so i drink my friend's Milo..
Actually is her cant drink it today,
then only lend to me..
Lolx~
But Thanks anyway the Milo,my friend..
Haha~
I spot Young's double slit,focal length and taker time(acceleration),
so i just going to study it..
Nothing to share with,
so end here..
Bye~

01/09

The FIRST DAY of Trial..
BC was the 1st paper..
I was get shock when i doing the paper II,
it was the 1st time i feel AFRAID and STRANGE bout CHINESE,
and DONT KNOW how answer the paper..
It was the worse thing..
For sure this paper no hope to A1..
Haiz~
After recess,had BC paperI..

It have 2 part..

I wasted too much time on Part I,

at the end i just left 3omins let me finish the Essay..

It was imposible~

The shortest possible time i had use to finish a Essay..

The essay must write between 400-600 words,

i dont think that i can reach this condition..

Disappointed~

Tomorrow sit for Chemistry PaperI and II..

I had get some tips from my friends,

even hard i memorize also can install in my brain..

Haiz~

I have no mood study at all now..

Blessing myself..

Good Luck all my friends~

What should i do..?!?!

Sometime a little stress is good for us in study,
because it can 'force' us go study or work hard..
But dont know why stess always bring the negative side to me..
I cant live in a stress situation,
i will suffer within..
My brain automatic will produce everything bout negative,
For example:run away from home,commit suicide and bla bla..
Haiz~
Nowaday everyone have talking bout exam,exam and exam..
I try to bear up myself dont effected by them..
Actually i'm the most worrying bout exam,
but i think no one have know bout it,
and i wont express out front of them..
i have some argue and problem with my parents recently..
Am i wrong..?!
I also not that sure whether my decide wrong or what..
I feeling afraid,stress,worry,innocent and scary..
Today my Dad had say something with me,
that time he was very serious,rude and fierce..
I really get shock,
i just blank there,dont know what response i should give..
This is the 2nd time Dad like this talk to me since child..
Im feel very sorry to Dad..
I now just have a feeling,
it is disappear from this troublesome world..
I had been suffer being a human..
Sorry who are reading my post,
i not purposely wrote negative here,
but i really cant 'tahan'..
That's all i wanted express..
Now i feeling better..