Forever LOVE: August 2009

What should i do..?!?!

Sometime a little stress is good for us in study,
because it can 'force' us go study or work hard..
But dont know why stess always bring the negative side to me..
I cant live in a stress situation,
i will suffer within..
My brain automatic will produce everything bout negative,
For example:run away from home,commit suicide and bla bla..
Haiz~
Nowaday everyone have talking bout exam,exam and exam..
I try to bear up myself dont effected by them..
Actually i'm the most worrying bout exam,
but i think no one have know bout it,
and i wont express out front of them..
i have some argue and problem with my parents recently..
Am i wrong..?!
I also not that sure whether my decide wrong or what..
I feeling afraid,stress,worry,innocent and scary..
Today my Dad had say something with me,
that time he was very serious,rude and fierce..
I really get shock,
i just blank there,dont know what response i should give..
This is the 2nd time Dad like this talk to me since child..
Im feel very sorry to Dad..
I now just have a feeling,
it is disappear from this troublesome world..
I had been suffer being a human..
Sorry who are reading my post,
i not purposely wrote negative here,
but i really cant 'tahan'..
That's all i wanted express..
Now i feeling better..

30/08

Early in the morning give dad wake me up..
Holiday also dont let me sleep late a bit,
some more last night i 4am+ only slept..
Dad and Mum have to go shop,
then having breakfast with my Emily aunt..
I love to have meal with aunt,
she taste are same with me..
After meal,i went cake shop,
i had order a Mango Cake as my bro's 15th bthday cake..
After it,i went to saloon cut my messy hair..
Maybe holiday,i waiting there 45mins+..
My aunt was window shopping there alone..
I was regret,
before i cut that hair with Lisa at XXX saloon,
the saloon make my hair 'spoil'..
Haiz~
Because of it,this time i cut until very short,
and i feel that this hair style got a bit bit weird,
but dont know what's that problem..
Erm,cut already just have to accept it,
dont have other choice..
I also cant blame other..
After i reached home,
My aunt's children were shock
and said:"jiejie,your hair very cute and like a love shape.."
My Dad some more frighten me,
He said:"Our jiejie change to cute style le o.."
MY GODNESS~~~~
T.T~~~
I SUPER HATE..
This time i some more regret follow what the hairstylist said..
Haiz~~
Luckyly exam time,just stay at classroom..
Hehe~
Sudden i relize that i havent buy my school shoes,
i went a few shoes's shop,
also cant found my size..
Dissapointed~
I have no mood to find anymore,
i some more have a stupid decision,
dont go attent school on tuesday..
But i know it is imposible,
because tuesday is trial 1st day..
Hopefully can found my size tomorow~
Blessing me ya~~~
Bye~~
I have to bed,parents blaming~
Good night~

29/08

Today damn terrible..
Im was late..
I received a call from mum before going out..
Im already late,she still wanted me help her find somethings..
Lolx~
Even bad luck, i just uses 5mins found a car park,
some more the car park is close my mum's shop..
It show i still have a bit luck..
Thanks God~
Haha~
1st i went to mum's shop to pass those she wanted to her..
She didnt have any good response some more blame me..
Well,i cool down and try dont want have any conflict with her..
After that,she asked me whether i eat..
I only found that she havent eat since morning..
Okay~
It was unbelievable i do that,
i walk to a bread shop,New Zealand..

That time i only get to know i not really know about mum,

and it was the 1st time i buy meal for her,

because since child i havent stay with mum,

therefore mum and i relation not good as normal mum and daughter,
and aslo have another reason..
Im confess that sometime i also will get jealous my friends..
They and their mum have a good relation,
but i dont have..
Haiz~
Maybe it is ordain..
So that im now also dont care about it anymore..
I had not pay 100% on lesson,Tuition time..
Dont know why until half of the lesson,i started feeling sleepy..
Haiz~
But i still have "tahan"..
Hehe~
After tuition then go Secret Recipe buy my favourite choc cake,
and go buy school uniform..
On the way going back shop,
my slipper sudden 'rosak'..
Luckyly,that time Zwei there..
She help me to shop and get a pair slipper for me..
Thank a lot ya,Frenx..
Mum have to back home and prepare diner..
Before Mum and Emily aunt had decide cook curry today,
but Emily aunt sudden have somethings to do..
Then Emily aunt ask me help at her shop awhile,
Okay wat awhile,then i straight away consent..
Haiz~
But finally i only know i was tricked..
I hate ppl trick me..
I wont help and trust who had been trick me..
Please dont try trick or cheat me,
I just wanted hear truth..
That's all i can say~
Thanks~
Good Night~
Muackxx~~

MoodLess~

Sorry for neglecting my blog for a long time..
Althought have alot wanted to share with,
but I have no mood to write out..
I now just like lost on the road,
dont know whether how and what im going to do..
Feeling afraid~~
Who can tell me what should i do..?!
Im now really dont have any ideal whether what i want..
I hate make a decision..
Every ppl had decision what they going to do after graduation..
But i have not conclusion yet..
Terrible me..
Haiz~
3 days going trial exam,
and i think it is also my death time..
This whole week i didnt study at all..
Im have no mood to study,
just open the book then started feel sleepy,
or else dreaming there,
and at the end also the book reading me until next day..
Haiz~

Dear Nyin,sweet 16th's bthday~~
(17/08)

Hapi Bthday ya,sapo Nyin~
Muackxx~~
Wish you have a sweet sweet 16th's bthday ya..
Hope you like that present we gave,
and the cake handmade by LISA..
Haha~
VbaLL FrenShip Never End~~
Yesterday purposely wait until 12am to wish Nyin..
Dont know wheter Im the 1st wishes her..?
The sapo Nyin very late only reply me,
She seem so so so busy o..
Haha~
Lisa made a chocolate-cheese cake on Sunday..
It was the 1st time she make cake..
The look its ok,bt nice to eat..
Did a Great Job ya,Lisa..
1st time then can make it like this,
it not that easy..
So i give you 80% la..
Haha~
Dont know why,today feel very tired+sleepy..
When seminar time,i almost fall asleep there..
Hehe~
Feeling sleepy and tired already..
Its the time to bed le..
Good night,my friends~
Muackxx~~

15/08

Every saturday also busy to be driver..
Haiz~
Since got that license,
my life changed worse..
Thonght 2day no need be driver,
can rest wat..
Because mummy's car had problem,
need take to check ad..
Hehe~
Daddy promised will pack Bak Kut Teh(Klang) for me as lunch d,
and take Lun(younger brother) to tuition d..
But at last also me go and fetch,
some more drove daddy's car le..
Scare dao~
But the end i also back with original..
Haha~
After that,i drove tuition myself too..
Today seem like no luck,
turned 3 rounds already still had not found a car park..
Going impatience time,
i found a car park and it was very close to my tuition centre..
Maybe effected by H1N1,
normally tuition centre will full of ppl even open the door also very difficult,
but today was very weird,
until lesson start the room still have a lot empty place..
Because of it the classroom feel cold..
It was the 1st time i feeling cold in this classroom..
It was unimaginable..
Haha~
Restrain oneself until the end of the lesson..
I felt better and warm after come out of the classroom..
I had nothing to share..
End here ba..
Good night..
Sweet dream ya~
Muackxx~~

Hapi Bthday,My Lovely Bro~
(11/08)

Today my YeeSam Bro 17th's bthday nehx~

Hapi Bthday ya,YeeSamBro...

Hope you stay happy and found a perfect girlfren ya~

Haiz~

Miss u nehx,Bro~

Since that day Bro call me ask bout then prom,

Bro like disappear ad..

Nowaday really super veri seldom have chance talk to Bro ad..

Mb Bro r busy,

so have no time chat with sis like last time ad lo..

Sad~

Im nt greedy lo,

even a simple msg from Bro,

Sis ad feel veri hapi..

Im feel hapi n lucky have a caring Bro As U,

Although u r changed,

since my Bro,forever My Bro~

Hope Bro remenber it~

P/S:Hope Bro+SisShip Forever~

10/08

Sudden have a feeling 2 write in English o..
Mb effected by somebody..
He is blow off that dun noe wat im wrote,
so i try write in English lo~
This is the 1st post i wrote in English..
Hehe~
Today have nothing special to share with...
Boring~
Attended school as usual...
Just Repeated doing the same things...
Haiz~
Oh,1hour more then is my lovelyBro’s 17thBthday le~
I hold my phone and get ready be the 1st to wish my Bro on 12am...
Hehe~
Wish Bro Hapi Bthday here early o...
Muackx~~

P/S:Hapi Bthday,YeeSam Bro~~~

My Bro’s 18thBthday~
（08/08）

HapiBthday，GaryBro~~~

今天被捉水鱼叻~
Haiz~
9·10am+就起床了...
没胃口吃早餐，就叫Dad买我想吃的
怎知还没开~
Haiz~
10·30am+就到店去了...
和Beckham，Janice满有缘的，
一到店就看到她们...
就call Beckham咯~
她说买了东西才过来找我...
超搞笑的咯她们...
我们一聚在一起一定是讲个不停，笑个不停的...
有完没完的~
Beckham饿了，就叫她们去吃东西咯~
哦~
谢谢Beckham“坚持”的早餐~
都说了没胃口还打包给我~
Haha~
最近的Beckham变了好多哦~
变得开朗了会搞笑，
有时还会被她所讲的东西冷到叻...
不知背后是不是隐藏着什么叻...
Haiz~
知道Beckham最近烦恼着一些事，
我却无能为力，
只能借你耳朵，帮你分析和给你支持鼓励...
身为朋友的我希望你不会后悔你所做的决定...
也不要再为这事和家人闹不合啦~
3·20pm+Dad来接班，
我就去补习咯~
5·06pm补完后，
就去店陪Dad咯...
7·10pm就驾Dad的车去Emily aunt家吃晚餐咯~
.........（懒惰写）
12am++Dad call，问我要不要吃东西...
Okay lolx就去咯，
其实不想吃的...
翠明msg说今天月亮很圆很美，很多星星...
难得一见~
就出去看咯
怎知一颗星都看不见咯~
Haiz~

P/S：希望Beckham可以尽快决绝这烦恼~

07/08

Tahan了一个星期，
终于输给了它...
感冒病发了~
最讨厌伤风的啦，宁愿发烧咯...
Haiz~
可能伤风导致呼吸困难，
所以整晚都半睡半醒的...
早上起床就觉得头好重，好疼...
算咯，就决定不去学校了...
7am+收到一封msg才想起答应了Jack...
Jack真不好意思哦，
我把它给忘了，害你担心~
然后10·30am+就去学校一趟...
哦~谢谢Amy帮我做跑腿哦今天~
然后就休息咯~
到1·40pm+又去学校一趟...
载Wwei和“老师”咯~
老实讲今天的补习没吸收到什么咯...
因为“老师”很累+伤风...
晚餐没胃口+喉咙痛所以只吃水果...
Hehe~
Dad出门前看我很不对劲，就叫我去看医生
Ok lolx，就应酬Dad说我会的~
没多久，Emily aunt打来要我载人
我说不舒服，
她就叫我看医生，因为我最近常生病~
9·10pm+Dad打来问我看了医生没...
Haiz~
没得逃了，就驾车到近近的Dr·Soo看咯...
怎知去到吓死我了...
要等10pm+，不等了~
然后就去Dr·Ng咯，关门了~
最后就去了Dr·Chai咯~
哇，这里更够力要等到第12个才到我叻...
最讨厌等的咯~
还要我等将久哦~
严重的话将等法都死了咯...
Haiz~
10·45pm终于到我了...
我等了1小时+...
Haiz~
医生check下就说好了，
心里想只是小病摆了，Dad死都要我看医生...
医生开了5种药：
-抗生素
-退烧药
-伤风药
-胃痛药
-止痛药
-咳嗽药水
哇，拿药时吓死我了...
怎么我有那么严重吗...？
有需要那么多药哦...？
我还问护士有给错药吗...
Hehe~
再过几分钟就是GaryBro的18thBthday叻~
HapiBthday~
Muackxx~

P/S：希望我和GaryBro的“Bro+SisShip” Never End~

06/08

自从Form3后，
再也没试过到KL补习了...
其实也考虑了满久才决定去的...
因为现在的我没有了以前的那股精力，
而且又要赶巴士，时间之类的...
不过为了SPM，
再累也得撑着...
很抱歉，我的朋友~
让你们久等了...
我们走去等巴士的当儿看到Zwei...
她好像有心事，很不开心似的...
之后又遇到朋友...
Haiz~
今天8了不少新闻哦...
等巴士的时候下毛毛雨了...
还好巴士很快就到了不然就变落汤鸡了...
上到巴士坐下后，
开始觉得疲倦了，困了...
还好有Qwei，Lisa的陪伴和聊天噢~
平时除了打球以外，
Qwei很少很我聚在一块的...
所以对她不是很了解...
但这吃的谈话中，
我发现了原来我们还是在球场上时心连着心的~
4pm+终于到了...
肚子好饿，刚好又有我想吃的...
不理了，买东西吃先~
Haha~
4·15pm开课了~
上AddMath，
老师叫Umaas
他满搞笑的，记性超好的...
他尽然记得完班上50++学生的名字了，
而且还权正确的，没搞错人叻...
他看到我就说我是不是1st time...
Pro dao~
5·30pm放课了~
就出去买东西吃咯~
买CYu推荐的炸食物咯~
5·45pm又上课了~
也是同一个老师...
... ... ...（没什么好写的）
7pm放学了...
终于可以回家休息了...
超累的，不写了~
晚安~

P/S：加油！加油！

新鲜感~

刚开始...
当你无意间踏入新世界，
发现新的事物时，
你会很感兴趣...
很新鲜感...
很期待会遇到怎样的事物，
即将发生的惊喜...
相反的...
你也会存在着害怕，
担心会遇到不幸的，
惊险的事物...
人类心里的矛盾...
期待惊喜，却又怕失望的感觉~
但你会试着接受还是逃避...？
我会选择接受，
接受可以得到更多不一样的...
不管是酸，甜，苦，辣...
就算伤痕累累也是值得的，
因为这也是人生的一部分...
即使是惨痛的回忆...
在未来的日子回想起，
都会回味无穷...
因为不在乎拥有多少，好坏，
只在乎曾经拥有和过程...
可是当日子久了...
那股新鲜开始消失了，
就开始慢慢的感到厌倦了...
厌倦的开始，
就会想着试着逃避了...

P/S：要勇于接受，不要懦弱选择逃避~