Forever LOVE

2010-02-03T00:54:00.003+08:00

020210

Today my birthday eve..

I had date with my friends to TS..

Birthday suppose happy?

But why I didnt feel happy at all?

Whatever la..

I knew my lovely are preparing for my 18th Birthday..

Thanks you all,really..

2009-10-27T22:17:00.003+08:00

HATE YOU!!!

Today thought can meet with Bro..
Tuition time can't concentrate at all,
keep on looking watch..
He had promise that after tuition come and find me,
but he lie..
LIE AGAIN!!!
Haiz~
Disappointed..
Feel upset,
tears dropping in heart..
Yesterday said bring me go relaxing have dinner with me,
BUT..
Lolx..

2009-10-11T00:09:00.007+08:00

10/10

Number 10 is MY FAVOURITE NUMBER..
10 is a number that very MEANINGFUL for me..
So 10/10 is MY FAVOURITE'S DAY..
But today seem very bad luck..
Im lost my ear ring in the morning..
I LOVE it must,
and i find quite a long time only found it..
Because of SEARCHING it,
i didnt sleep at all..
T.T~
I get back my phone,
but it CANNOT stay beside me anymore..
I LOVE this phone forever..
SAD..
I have NO MOOD at all,
and GRUMPY too..
Because of my younger BRO,
i didnt have enough time have my lunch,
just ate a pieces of bread..
Tuition time,
i feel NOT WELL..
10pm+ wanted out YUMCHA with friends,
but give mum BLAME,
then didnt go yumcha..
I get a SURPRISE from my friends..
1 is from Penand's friends..
I get a "POS EXPRESS" BOX from they..
It is a quite MATURE shirt for me in black colour..
Another ones was from zwei,
it was a PADINI BAG..
Thanks a lot ya,"BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT"..
Muackx~~
I LOVE it much..
Haha~
Beside it i gain A CLOTHER from my aunt too..
It also black in colour..
Thankx~

2009-10-10T13:36:00.004+08:00

Opinion

The world have 100 000 000 people,
but want find a people that really match with,
know you true,caring,treat you honestly..
It not that easy,
actually can say is very tough..
So if found it,
must treasure..
but i think it wouldnt happen on me..

Even how important you for him/her,
how LOVE you,he/she said,
is cant represent that he/she can sacrifice himself/herself because of you..
Human is selfish,
That's true..
So must know to analyse what is true and lie..
It is to protect own self..

Promise..
If cant fulfil..
Please dont try to make promise with other..
Promise is a mendacity and falseness..
It can make people excited and happy..
But when become falsehood,
it will hurt people deeply and seriously..

P/S:Except own self nobody can trust..

2009-10-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

09/10

Tired~
Because of somethings happened,
yesterday didnt sleep..
Thanks Cbeng..
You had accompany me whole night..
Because of You,
i feel better and relaxing now..
Sorry too..
Because disturbing You whole night,
make You lack of sleep..
Hehe~
Afternoon time,
I went to meet with friends..
Because of it,
had quarrel with mum..
We had spend whole day to make cake..
1 cheese cake and 1 sponge cake..
The cheese was too creamy and soft..
It smell make me wanted vomit..
But the Nyin said it very nice to eat..
The sponge cake not enough flour,
so very liquid,
failed to write to "0"..
Then we decided go buy flour..
Half way,
hungry then went out had lunch,
and bought the flour at Bintang..
Finally we sucess..
Nyin and Zii 1st time make,
see the cake succeed,
they feel very happy and satisfaction..
6.15pm+went home..
Quickly take a bath then prepared to tuition..
7pm+Zwei came and fetch me..
Tired~
Nothing share..
Bye~
Tomorrow 10/10..
my favourite's day..

2009-10-09T04:36:00.003+08:00

YOU!!!

WASTED!!!
I really dont know why?!
Why should make the situation until like this?!
YOU are very greedy!!!
I had already do a lot on YOU,
but YOU still keep on complain,
said that i didnt did anythings at all..
Make me feel disappointed on YOU at all..
I think i wouldnt be stupid anymore,
because i know how much i did for YOU,
YOU wouldnt know and never know..
YOU totally make me heart death on YOU..
I really try my best sucess what YOU wanted me do,
even nowaday have busy to prepare for SPM..
I really stressing,afraid on study,
YOU wouldnt know and didnt give me any support,
some more increasing my stress..
F**K..
Enough!!!

2009-10-06T22:45:00.015+08:00

Memories~

(04/10)

Early then went to Sunway Lagoon..
I bring my little cousin CELEBRATE her BIRTHDAY..
She invited Zwei too..
We very STUPID dont know the way to Sunway Lagoon..
Sunway Lagoon bring me a lot MEMORY..
[2007]
Nyin,I and my senior(LuLu,BoBo,DXiang,Wyao and many)have the 1st Beach Volleyball match there..
That time i was 15 years old,whereas Nyin only 14 years old..
It was fun..
I LOVE Beach Vollyball from that time..
[2008]
This time with MY LOVELY GANG,U16 Boy team and senior too(Gary,AhBoon,Evon,Jane and so on)..
It was a UNFORGETABLE memory..
We together SWIM,PLAY FUN,HAVING MEAL,DO SOME 38 ACTION and many many..
I LOVE MY GANG FOREVER,
and thank GOD let me meet all of YOU..
Muackx~
[2009]
This year NOT with MY LOVELY GANG..
Because of some problem,
this year Beach Volleyball Match was CANCEL..
Feel SAD,T.T~~~
It was the LAST CHANCE can make OUR together have fun,
BUT.. ...
Haiz~~
Actually i have no mood go Sunway Lagoon..
On the way i received friend's text that they have GATHERING,
make me some more no mood at all..
I try BEAR UP myself dont want effect my little cousin sis and Zwei..
Zwei and i TAKE TURN accompany my little cousin sis..
I feel REGRET didnt bring the VOLLEYBALL together..
I saw a group HANDSOME(other country,180cm+)were playing ball,
i run there and hope to play with them..
BUT they already 6 people a group,
so i waiting there..
While waiting,i found some of them know spiking..
Haha~
VERY BAD LUCK,
my phone was DROP into water and CANT FUNCTION..
Haiz~
After it,
we had dinner(BBQ..FORGOT the name of restaurant)..
We order quite a lot..
I ate 1 AND HALF OF BOWL of rice..
Hehe~
I bought 3 pieces of clother at PIDINI CONCEPT STORE,
1 piece T-shirt at CATCH UP..
Today had SPEND a lot money..
SUPER VERY TIRED~
Bye~

2009-09-26T04:53:00.003+08:00

Friendly Match~
(25/09)

12pm then reached school..
U15 boys early then waiting at school..
I feel HAPPY and EXCITED..
since MSSD,
we U18 girls have not play ball together..
While waiting,
we digging there,
it was fun..
1.30pm+we start our "journey" to ISKL..
It is an INTERNATIONAL school,
students who study there quite a lot from other country..
JEALOUS~
Haha~
2pm++ arrived..
But ISKL having lesson,
so we had waiting until 3pm after they finish lesson..
The U18 guys very CUTE,
they keep walk around and "KAP" lenglui..
Haha~
Maybe warm up not enough,
so i have not play as well as i can on the 1st game,
i did a lot MISTAKE,
sure make my teammate DISAPPOINTED..
Haiz~
Anyway i still try my best,
even some of them already LOST the CONFIDENT on me..
I have no mood and spirit play at all,
after the 1st game..
But i BEAR UP myself don't want effect them..
At the last we won,
but i have no any feeling,
Just feel TIRED..
After thought can have a game will U15 guys(ISKL),
but they rush of time..
We took a lot PICTURE at there..
It was a MENORABLE'S MEMORY..
On the way went school,
we didn't silent at all,
keep make NOISY and CRAZY there..
After that,
we having dinner together too..
Very happy~
2nd round~
We yumcha at NAZA..
I was SUPRISE and get SHOCK,
when meet with BoonBRO..
He look MATURE and FRIENDLY..
Hehe~
1am only went home..
Haha~
TREASURE what we having now,
even have SADNESS,TEAR,QUARREL..
1 month+ going then we have to DETACH..

2009-09-20T03:21:00.016+08:00

UNFORGETABLE'S MEMORY~
(19/09)

Today 10am+ then woke up..
Prepare go town EARLY..
After bring Lun to tuition,
then 12.30pm+ go town..
Town's traffic very jam..
I 12.40pm reached town,
but i 2.30 somthing only found a 'CAR PARK',
some more i just park the car beside the road..
AWESOME~
Today had lunch alone and quite rush..
2.50pm+ meet with Cbeng,
I bring her to see something at the STYLO there..
After it 3.20pm+ went tuition..
I feeling SUPER HAPPY and EXCITED,
we had trainning with SENIORS after tuition..
When i was tuition,
i received a msg that training cancel,
because RAINNY..
LOLX~
DISAPPOINTED..
RAINNY is NOT a reason,excuse that can effected the trainning cancel..
Luckyly when i was finish my tuition time,
didnt have rainny anymore..
Thanks GOD..
Before thought Gary BRO sit bus to town,
so call him come shop find me and walk to school together..
I was shock,he DRIVING~
It's was the 1st time i sit my Gary BRO's car..
Im better than Lisa,
she sat Xyang's car(He drive quite fast,rush and dangerous)..
Haha~
Today was very FUN,
even just only had 1 coach+6 player..
If our group have come sure more and more fun..
We had long time didnt play ball with those SENIORS..
While waiting for coach,
Seniors they played BbaLL,
Lisa and i were stand beside as SUPPORTER..
Because of some 'EFFECT',
we started our WAR(Beach's style VbaLL match)..
It's between TzeXiang's group(Xyang anf Fsan) and Gary's group(Lisa and I)..
After 2 games COACH had join our group..
Finally my BRO's group WON..
My leg INJURED and now had a WOUND there,
pain T.T~
But it's VALUABLE,
we all ENJOYED the games..
Haha~
We played until 7pm+,
Then had dinner at BEACH,
i have no apetite just order a bowl mushroom soup as my dinner..
After it had 2nd round at NASA..
I went home and took a bath,
then 10pm+ meet with them..
Because some 'REASON',
Lisa and i feeling bored and went home..
It was the 1st time we 2 yumcha back so EARLY..
Haiz~
Feeling Happy+Moody..
Dont know what's that feeling~
Hope to see YOU ALL SOON..
Miss YOU ALL~

2009-09-20T03:03:00.012+08:00

DISAPPOINTED!!!
HATE!!!

UNCONCEIVABLE...

WHEN I CHANGING SHOES TIME,
YOU ASKING ME,
[IF I'M HAVE SMOKE,HOW YOUR FEELING?!]
THAT TIME,
I FEEL WEIRD AND I GET SHOCK,
JUST I DIDNT SHOW FRONT OF YOU..
I'M ASKED BACK YOU,
[YOU REALLY HAVE SMOKE?!]
YOU SAID [NO,JUST JOKE]..
WELL,I TRUST YOU AND TREAT IT AS JOKE..
BUT YOU ARE FAKE OUT..
I FEELING DISAPPOINTED ON YOU..
WHEN I HEARD THAT,
I REALLY CANT BELIEVE IT AND SHOCK,
YOU SMOKE..
I TELL MYSELF YOU WOULDNT LIKE THEY SAID..
BUT FINALLY I FOUND THAT ALL ARE 100% TRUTH,

BUT I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT..
I FEEL HEART BREAK,SAD,ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED,
BUT WHAT CAN I DO?!
SCOLD YOU,BLAME YOU?!
NO,I HAVE NO THAT QUALIFICATION TO DO ANYTHINGS ON YOU..
I SILENT THERE..
AFTER I HAD TRY ASK YOU,
HOPE YOU CAN TELL ME THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH IS YOU DIDNT SMOKE..
BUT...(THAT'S NOT I WANTED)
I HATE MOST ON IT..
I HOPE MY FREINDS WHO AROUND ME DIDNT HAVE TOUCH ON IT..
ESPECIALLY WHO I CARE MUCH..
WHAT I HAD SAID TO YOU,
HOPE YOU REALLY HAVE HEARD AND GO THINK..
I DISLIKE YOU SMOKE..

TAKE CARE YOURSLEF..

THAT'S ALL I CAN DO..

2009-09-19T00:47:00.006+08:00

18/09

1st day of holiday.
Feeling bored..
Slept until 12pm+..
After shower then BLOGGING..
Hehe~
After Daddy came back then follow his out..
Because rush of time,
i had not eat anything since morning until night..
Tired~
Today had a bit LATE to tuition,
K.Lumpur traffic jam..
Lucky lesson have not start yet..
Hehe~
Today teacher give us do 'asrama penuh' TRIAL paper I..
Front of the paper quite EASY,
see the question then have answer already,
but quite a lot wanted calculate question.
im very LAZY calculate those question,
then wait my friends those calculate it and copy answer from them..
Am i smart?
Hehe~
After tuition then go YUMCHA..
I ate a lot things..
After had 'MAGGI GORENG',
still not yet full,
then order a 'ROTI KOSONG'..
Hehe~
Exam time had use a lot energy,
so that eat a lot..
But how i ate also wouldnt grow FATa bit..
WHY?!
Haiz~
When bill time,
Lisa said she treat me because... ...
Lisa's wallet BLOODING..
Thanks a lot,Lisa..
Haha~
Today after 12am only reached home,
but my parents didnt blame me at all..
Feel WEIRD about they action and response..
It's time to bed~
Bye~
Good night~
Have nice dream~

2009-09-18T02:30:00.007+08:00

17/09

The tips that get from friends was out..
It was 100% same..
Thanks ya,my friends~
Hope can get high mark in this paper to RECOVER the paper II..
After exam,i back home take a bath..
Ohya,my friends follow me back too..
After had lunch then go fetch the TROUBLESOME PEOPLE..
Haha~
She had to sit for EST exam paper until 12.30pm..
Then we go jusco meet with Myee..
We had booking for singK at GREEN BOX..
Normally we Vball's GATHERING,
i will feel very EXCITED and HAPPY,
but today im NOT..
Why?!?!
What was going wrong?!?!
My heart is NOT linking with them anymore?!?!
Haiz~
Or maybe exam,
we had seldom join together have fun,chit-chat and so on,
so that the feeling CHANGED?!?!
After it,we had decide go back school play ball,
but sudden Lisa cant go,
after it Vivian and Weiwei too..
Haiz~
Just left me and Qwei wanted play ball,
then we went back school,
but UNLUCKY sudden rainny..
After fetch Vivian and Qwei school,
then went back home..
Today had no mood at all..
What had decided before holiday,
some had to CANCEL,
or else then SELF-ACTIVITY..
That's all,nothing share..
Happy Holiday~
Bye~

2009-09-18T01:31:00.003+08:00

16/09

Dont know why even today didnt have to school,
but sill 5am+ then woke up without alarm..
Maybe had been ACCUSTOMED to it..
Haha~
But after also sleep again..
9am something then went out jogging with friends..
I just jog for 45minutes+,
because of some REASON..
Hehe~
After had a shower,
I msg Lisa and asked she when we should go bus stop,
and also the tuition time table,
cause PUASA the time table had a bit changed..
Mines time table had LOST..
Hehe~
Because of TRIAL EXAM,
we had missed 2 lesson(AddMaths'tuition),
We 2 had lost the latest time table,
so that keep asking ppl,
but no ones can give me answer..
Luckyly,Lisa found the time table at the end..
If not dont know how..
Hehe~
Today had install a lot knowledge inside brain..
I like here tuition most..
Before i totally HATE AddMath,
but now feel that it was NICE and FUN..
Even at school how CONCENTRATE on teacher's teach also cant get it,
but after i been here tuition,
i start INTEREST it and feel it not that TOUGH to solve it..
Hehe~
Feel HAPPY and it was UNBELIEVABLE that i had meet with my GARY bro in the bus..
He didnt changed a lot,
just look MATURE a bit..
And he seen like not that happy meet with me..
Haiz~
Is i think TOO MUCH on it or BRO already dont want me?
I feel a bit a bit SADNESS and DISAPPOINTED when heard something bout BRO,
and not from him is from other's mouth..
I am your sis what?!
Why must always get know about yours from other not from yourself?!
Feeling useless~
Tomorow Biology paper III,
I have to go prepare for it..
Bye~
Good Luck~

2009-09-12T20:55:00.003+08:00

10/09

I was get shock,
when i open the paper and check..
What had i do yesterday really come out on paper II..
Some more the question 100% same,
the arrangement same also..
Wahx~
Feel happy 1st TIME can finish the whole paper and still have extra time to DOUBLE CHECK..
Haha~
But dont know how bout the result whether good..
I'm nt greedy,just have improve then enough..
Haiz~
Toromow exam until 10.10am then can back home rest..
Sejarah paper II..
I hate it..
This subject have to MEMORIZE all those are USELESS and BORING..
Luckly i have tips..
I just study all the tips,
other i didnt go and bother..
Hehe~
But just tips also can let me cant sleep tonight..
The tips have quite a lot..
Haiz~
So i decide just pick some of the tips are EASIER memorize and read..
Wahaha~
Lazy bud..

2009-09-12T19:55:00.007+08:00

09/09

Yesterday only said that the tips are very ACCURATE..
DISAPPOINTED~
What i have prepared for poem didnt come out at all..
My Godness~
That's why,i only say cant too depend on tips..
Luckyly,'The Necklace' have given a text,
the answer can refer the text that given,
so still can answer a few question..
But the 'Monson History' dont have any text can refer,
must know the words,stanza meant,
that time i just can recall back a bit what had teacher said,
so i just can answer 3 of the question,
then other just simple write a answer..
Hehe~
Erm,the tips of BI paper I was accurate..
Speech really come out..
Haha~
Thanks God~
I just get to know,
Toromow AddtionalMath almost out from year 2005,2006 and 2008 SPM exam paper,
i dont have buy pass year paper to do..
I thought my AM WAITING DIE..
But my friend,Zwei have help me..
She take a book that have pass year question that with solution to me..
Thanks a lot ya,my friend~
Haha~
I started to do it,
i found i have a lot dont know to do,
i feel AFRAIND that time,
almost CRY and GIVE UP..
But i cant do that..
After i rest a while,
then i continue do that all question..
I hope my AM can get IMPROVE,
i really have WORK HARD on in subject..
Blessing me,please~

2009-09-12T19:19:00.003+08:00

08/09

I'm really don't know how my friends they get all the tips bout this time exam..
The tips from my friends all was out on BM paper II..
My Godness~
I not trust it at all,
but luck i had read through all the tips from they..
Thanks a lot ya,my friends..
Aspecially MY VBALL GANG..
Haha~
Hope BM paper II can get HIGH MARK..
BM paper I quite DIFFICULT,
because all choices given i have not idea to do..
But at last i also have finish it..
Getting tired~
But must 'TAHAN' till end of the exam..
XinLu gambatehx~
I have to go prepare for tomorow paper..
Bye lo,friends~
Muackx~~

2009-09-06T03:10:00.007+08:00

04/09

Today OVER SLEPT AGAIN..
Actually i had decide attent school late a bit,
because our school have celebration of MERDEKA,
but friends ask me come as usual..
During performance,had a guy sing until half song,
the "salong"that his wear was DROP..
The most FUNNY part is the guy didnt take case that his "salong" was dropping..
The whole hall also laughing on him that time,
including teacher..
He quickly walk away,didnt come out again..
Haiz~
Lisa and I keep laugh about it..
I CANT CONCENTRATE study at all at the time..
After it had sat for chemistry paper III..
Wuwu~
The experiment i read DIDNT COME OUT..
So cham..
I wrote all i know about that question asked,
then snap awhile..
Wow~
Yesterday physics paper I and II already out what had i spot..
Today also..
Hehe~
When i get the exam paper i quickyly open it and see whether the things i spot have come out..
1st quetion are... ...
2nd question are ask about Young's double slit..
3rd question is design experiment,it about focal length between... ...
Who had ask me yesterday,she/he must be very enjoy in answering the 2 question..
Haha~
Finally 2 sciences subjects was finish..
Today i had 100% MIND CLEAR,
i get all about teacher said during Biology tuition..
After tuition then invited by Lisa go Old Town YUMCHA..
Haha~
Actually,before already promise wanted out with other gang of friends,
but certain effect i RELEASE they aeroplane..
Hehe~
Sorry ya,My gang~

2009-09-06T02:25:00.008+08:00

02/09

I over slept..
I woke up time already 6.30am..
My Godness..
Today sat for Chemistry paper I and II..
Yesterday thought attent school early,
then can call Lisa explain for me..
Haiz~
I HATE chemistry,
i dont like memorize those STUPID and USELESS equation..
I was BLANKING there when get the paper,
but other were start answering the paper..
Lolx~
I had GIVE UP on my chemistry(Trial)..
But i will try my best on SPM..
I have to go study my Physics and Chemistry,
tomorow both also paper III,
need memorize experiments..
T.T~
Normally,i seldom having meal at MCDonald..
Fast food is not good for healthy,
aspecially im a player,
so have to avoid to eat it ..
But today sudden have a feeling wanted eat McDonald,
before thought go pack and eat at home..
Hehe~
At front of McDonald,
i meet with friends who are long time didnt see..
Hyin,Beckham and a new friend(im sorry forget her nama)..
I feeling shock that time,
Beckh said have lunch at McDonald,
because Beckh had said dont like it..
And hor,i 1st time see they with school look,
damn weird..
Because nomally we together also trainning time wear sport,
the hyin some more wear long shirt inside..
She seem like so scare become black o..
At last i had lunch with them..
I dont like and dont want drink Coke,
so i drink my friend's Milo..
Actually is her cant drink it today,
then only lend to me..
Lolx~
But Thanks anyway the Milo,my friend..
Haha~
I spot Young's double slit,focal length and taker time(acceleration),
so i just going to study it..
Nothing to share with,
so end here..
Bye~

2009-09-06T01:01:00.005+08:00

01/09

The FIRST DAY of Trial..
BC was the 1st paper..
I was get shock when i doing the paper II,
it was the 1st time i feel AFRAID and STRANGE bout CHINESE,
and DONT KNOW how answer the paper..
It was the worse thing..
For sure this paper no hope to A1..
Haiz~
After recess,had BC paperI..

It have 2 part..

I wasted too much time on Part I,

at the end i just left 3omins let me finish the Essay..

It was imposible~

The shortest possible time i had use to finish a Essay..

The essay must write between 400-600 words,

i dont think that i can reach this condition..

Disappointed~

Tomorrow sit for Chemistry PaperI and II..

I had get some tips from my friends,

even hard i memorize also can install in my brain..

Haiz~

I have no mood study at all now..

Blessing myself..

Good Luck all my friends~

2009-08-31T19:29:00.002+08:00

What should i do..?!?!

Sometime a little stress is good for us in study,
because it can 'force' us go study or work hard..
But dont know why stess always bring the negative side to me..
I cant live in a stress situation,
i will suffer within..
My brain automatic will produce everything bout negative,
For example:run away from home,commit suicide and bla bla..
Haiz~
Nowaday everyone have talking bout exam,exam and exam..
I try to bear up myself dont effected by them..
Actually i'm the most worrying bout exam,
but i think no one have know bout it,
and i wont express out front of them..
i have some argue and problem with my parents recently..
Am i wrong..?!
I also not that sure whether my decide wrong or what..
I feeling afraid,stress,worry,innocent and scary..
Today my Dad had say something with me,
that time he was very serious,rude and fierce..
I really get shock,
i just blank there,dont know what response i should give..
This is the 2nd time Dad like this talk to me since child..
Im feel very sorry to Dad..
I now just have a feeling,
it is disappear from this troublesome world..
I had been suffer being a human..
Sorry who are reading my post,
i not purposely wrote negative here,
but i really cant 'tahan'..
That's all i wanted express..
Now i feeling better..

2009-08-31T17:58:00.003+08:00

30/08

Early in the morning give dad wake me up..
Holiday also dont let me sleep late a bit,
some more last night i 4am+ only slept..
Dad and Mum have to go shop,
then having breakfast with my Emily aunt..
I love to have meal with aunt,
she taste are same with me..
After meal,i went cake shop,
i had order a Mango Cake as my bro's 15th bthday cake..
After it,i went to saloon cut my messy hair..
Maybe holiday,i waiting there 45mins+..
My aunt was window shopping there alone..
I was regret,
before i cut that hair with Lisa at XXX saloon,
the saloon make my hair 'spoil'..
Haiz~
Because of it,this time i cut until very short,
and i feel that this hair style got a bit bit weird,
but dont know what's that problem..
Erm,cut already just have to accept it,
dont have other choice..
I also cant blame other..
After i reached home,
My aunt's children were shock
and said:"jiejie,your hair very cute and like a love shape.."
My Dad some more frighten me,
He said:"Our jiejie change to cute style le o.."
MY GODNESS~~~~
T.T~~~
I SUPER HATE..
This time i some more regret follow what the hairstylist said..
Haiz~~
Luckyly exam time,just stay at classroom..
Hehe~
Sudden i relize that i havent buy my school shoes,
i went a few shoes's shop,
also cant found my size..
Dissapointed~
I have no mood to find anymore,
i some more have a stupid decision,
dont go attent school on tuesday..
But i know it is imposible,
because tuesday is trial 1st day..
Hopefully can found my size tomorow~
Blessing me ya~~~
Bye~~
I have to bed,parents blaming~
Good night~

2009-08-30T01:56:00.009+08:00

29/08

Today damn terrible..
Im was late..
I received a call from mum before going out..
Im already late,she still wanted me help her find somethings..
Lolx~
Even bad luck, i just uses 5mins found a car park,
some more the car park is close my mum's shop..
It show i still have a bit luck..
Thanks God~
Haha~
1st i went to mum's shop to pass those she wanted to her..
She didnt have any good response some more blame me..
Well,i cool down and try dont want have any conflict with her..
After that,she asked me whether i eat..
I only found that she havent eat since morning..
Okay~
It was unbelievable i do that,
i walk to a bread shop,New Zealand..

That time i only get to know i not really know about mum,

and it was the 1st time i buy meal for her,

because since child i havent stay with mum,

therefore mum and i relation not good as normal mum and daughter,
and aslo have another reason..
Im confess that sometime i also will get jealous my friends..
They and their mum have a good relation,
but i dont have..
Haiz~
Maybe it is ordain..
So that im now also dont care about it anymore..
I had not pay 100% on lesson,Tuition time..
Dont know why until half of the lesson,i started feeling sleepy..
Haiz~
But i still have "tahan"..
Hehe~
After tuition then go Secret Recipe buy my favourite choc cake,
and go buy school uniform..
On the way going back shop,
my slipper sudden 'rosak'..
Luckyly,that time Zwei there..
She help me to shop and get a pair slipper for me..
Thank a lot ya,Frenx..
Mum have to back home and prepare diner..
Before Mum and Emily aunt had decide cook curry today,
but Emily aunt sudden have somethings to do..
Then Emily aunt ask me help at her shop awhile,
Okay wat awhile,then i straight away consent..
Haiz~
But finally i only know i was tricked..
I hate ppl trick me..
I wont help and trust who had been trick me..
Please dont try trick or cheat me,
I just wanted hear truth..
That's all i can say~
Thanks~
Good Night~
Muackxx~~

2009-08-30T00:52:00.010+08:00

MoodLess~

Sorry for neglecting my blog for a long time..
Althought have alot wanted to share with,
but I have no mood to write out..
I now just like lost on the road,
dont know whether how and what im going to do..
Feeling afraid~~
Who can tell me what should i do..?!
Im now really dont have any ideal whether what i want..
I hate make a decision..
Every ppl had decision what they going to do after graduation..
But i have not conclusion yet..
Terrible me..
Haiz~
3 days going trial exam,
and i think it is also my death time..
This whole week i didnt study at all..
Im have no mood to study,
just open the book then started feel sleepy,
or else dreaming there,
and at the end also the book reading me until next day..
Haiz~

2009-08-17T21:54:00.004+08:00

Dear Nyin,sweet 16th's bthday~~
(17/08)

Hapi Bthday ya,sapo Nyin~
Muackxx~~
Wish you have a sweet sweet 16th's bthday ya..
Hope you like that present we gave,
and the cake handmade by LISA..
Haha~
VbaLL FrenShip Never End~~
Yesterday purposely wait until 12am to wish Nyin..
Dont know wheter Im the 1st wishes her..?
The sapo Nyin very late only reply me,
She seem so so so busy o..
Haha~
Lisa made a chocolate-cheese cake on Sunday..
It was the 1st time she make cake..
The look its ok,bt nice to eat..
Did a Great Job ya,Lisa..
1st time then can make it like this,
it not that easy..
So i give you 80% la..
Haha~
Dont know why,today feel very tired+sleepy..
When seminar time,i almost fall asleep there..
Hehe~
Feeling sleepy and tired already..
Its the time to bed le..
Good night,my friends~
Muackxx~~

2009-08-16T21:41:00.005+08:00

15/08

Every saturday also busy to be driver..
Haiz~
Since got that license,
my life changed worse..
Thonght 2day no need be driver,
can rest wat..
Because mummy's car had problem,
need take to check ad..
Hehe~
Daddy promised will pack Bak Kut Teh(Klang) for me as lunch d,
and take Lun(younger brother) to tuition d..
But at last also me go and fetch,
some more drove daddy's car le..
Scare dao~
But the end i also back with original..
Haha~
After that,i drove tuition myself too..
Today seem like no luck,
turned 3 rounds already still had not found a car park..
Going impatience time,
i found a car park and it was very close to my tuition centre..
Maybe effected by H1N1,
normally tuition centre will full of ppl even open the door also very difficult,
but today was very weird,
until lesson start the room still have a lot empty place..
Because of it the classroom feel cold..
It was the 1st time i feeling cold in this classroom..
It was unimaginable..
Haha~
Restrain oneself until the end of the lesson..
I felt better and warm after come out of the classroom..
I had nothing to share..
End here ba..
Good night..
Sweet dream ya~
Muackxx~~

2009-08-15T00:49:00.007+08:00

Hapi Bthday,My Lovely Bro~
(11/08)

Today my YeeSam Bro 17th's bthday nehx~

Hapi Bthday ya,YeeSamBro...

Hope you stay happy and found a perfect girlfren ya~

Haiz~

Miss u nehx,Bro~

Since that day Bro call me ask bout then prom,

Bro like disappear ad..

Nowaday really super veri seldom have chance talk to Bro ad..

Mb Bro r busy,

so have no time chat with sis like last time ad lo..

Sad~

Im nt greedy lo,

even a simple msg from Bro,

Sis ad feel veri hapi..

Im feel hapi n lucky have a caring Bro As U,

Although u r changed,

since my Bro,forever My Bro~

Hope Bro remenber it~

P/S:Hope Bro+SisShip Forever~

2009-08-15T00:14:00.006+08:00

10/08

Sudden have a feeling 2 write in English o..
Mb effected by somebody..
He is blow off that dun noe wat im wrote,
so i try write in English lo~
This is the 1st post i wrote in English..
Hehe~
Today have nothing special to share with...
Boring~
Attended school as usual...
Just Repeated doing the same things...
Haiz~
Oh,1hour more then is my lovelyBro’s 17thBthday le~
I hold my phone and get ready be the 1st to wish my Bro on 12am...
Hehe~
Wish Bro Hapi Bthday here early o...
Muackx~~

P/S:Hapi Bthday,YeeSam Bro~~~

2009-08-09T17:39:00.012+08:00

My Bro’s 18thBthday~
（08/08）

HapiBthday，GaryBro~~~

今天被捉水鱼叻~
Haiz~
9·10am+就起床了...
没胃口吃早餐，就叫Dad买我想吃的
怎知还没开~
Haiz~
10·30am+就到店去了...
和Beckham，Janice满有缘的，
一到店就看到她们...
就call Beckham咯~
她说买了东西才过来找我...
超搞笑的咯她们...
我们一聚在一起一定是讲个不停，笑个不停的...
有完没完的~
Beckham饿了，就叫她们去吃东西咯~
哦~
谢谢Beckham“坚持”的早餐~
都说了没胃口还打包给我~
Haha~
最近的Beckham变了好多哦~
变得开朗了会搞笑，
有时还会被她所讲的东西冷到叻...
不知背后是不是隐藏着什么叻...
Haiz~
知道Beckham最近烦恼着一些事，
我却无能为力，
只能借你耳朵，帮你分析和给你支持鼓励...
身为朋友的我希望你不会后悔你所做的决定...
也不要再为这事和家人闹不合啦~
3·20pm+Dad来接班，
我就去补习咯~
5·06pm补完后，
就去店陪Dad咯...
7·10pm就驾Dad的车去Emily aunt家吃晚餐咯~
.........（懒惰写）
12am++Dad call，问我要不要吃东西...
Okay lolx就去咯，
其实不想吃的...
翠明msg说今天月亮很圆很美，很多星星...
难得一见~
就出去看咯
怎知一颗星都看不见咯~
Haiz~

P/S：希望Beckham可以尽快决绝这烦恼~

2009-08-09T15:58:00.009+08:00

07/08

Tahan了一个星期，
终于输给了它...
感冒病发了~
最讨厌伤风的啦，宁愿发烧咯...
Haiz~
可能伤风导致呼吸困难，
所以整晚都半睡半醒的...
早上起床就觉得头好重，好疼...
算咯，就决定不去学校了...
7am+收到一封msg才想起答应了Jack...
Jack真不好意思哦，
我把它给忘了，害你担心~
然后10·30am+就去学校一趟...
哦~谢谢Amy帮我做跑腿哦今天~
然后就休息咯~
到1·40pm+又去学校一趟...
载Wwei和“老师”咯~
老实讲今天的补习没吸收到什么咯...
因为“老师”很累+伤风...
晚餐没胃口+喉咙痛所以只吃水果...
Hehe~
Dad出门前看我很不对劲，就叫我去看医生
Ok lolx，就应酬Dad说我会的~
没多久，Emily aunt打来要我载人
我说不舒服，
她就叫我看医生，因为我最近常生病~
9·10pm+Dad打来问我看了医生没...
Haiz~
没得逃了，就驾车到近近的Dr·Soo看咯...
怎知去到吓死我了...
要等10pm+，不等了~
然后就去Dr·Ng咯，关门了~
最后就去了Dr·Chai咯~
哇，这里更够力要等到第12个才到我叻...
最讨厌等的咯~
还要我等将久哦~
严重的话将等法都死了咯...
Haiz~
10·45pm终于到我了...
我等了1小时+...
Haiz~
医生check下就说好了，
心里想只是小病摆了，Dad死都要我看医生...
医生开了5种药：
-抗生素
-退烧药
-伤风药
-胃痛药
-止痛药
-咳嗽药水
哇，拿药时吓死我了...
怎么我有那么严重吗...？
有需要那么多药哦...？
我还问护士有给错药吗...
Hehe~
再过几分钟就是GaryBro的18thBthday叻~
HapiBthday~
Muackxx~

P/S：希望我和GaryBro的“Bro+SisShip” Never End~

2009-08-09T10:38:00.007+08:00

06/08

自从Form3后，
再也没试过到KL补习了...
其实也考虑了满久才决定去的...
因为现在的我没有了以前的那股精力，
而且又要赶巴士，时间之类的...
不过为了SPM，
再累也得撑着...
很抱歉，我的朋友~
让你们久等了...
我们走去等巴士的当儿看到Zwei...
她好像有心事，很不开心似的...
之后又遇到朋友...
Haiz~
今天8了不少新闻哦...
等巴士的时候下毛毛雨了...
还好巴士很快就到了不然就变落汤鸡了...
上到巴士坐下后，
开始觉得疲倦了，困了...
还好有Qwei，Lisa的陪伴和聊天噢~
平时除了打球以外，
Qwei很少很我聚在一块的...
所以对她不是很了解...
但这吃的谈话中，
我发现了原来我们还是在球场上时心连着心的~
4pm+终于到了...
肚子好饿，刚好又有我想吃的...
不理了，买东西吃先~
Haha~
4·15pm开课了~
上AddMath，
老师叫Umaas
他满搞笑的，记性超好的...
他尽然记得完班上50++学生的名字了，
而且还权正确的，没搞错人叻...
他看到我就说我是不是1st time...
Pro dao~
5·30pm放课了~
就出去买东西吃咯~
买CYu推荐的炸食物咯~
5·45pm又上课了~
也是同一个老师...
... ... ...（没什么好写的）
7pm放学了...
终于可以回家休息了...
超累的，不写了~
晚安~

P/S：加油！加油！

2009-08-01T11:50:00.007+08:00

新鲜感~

刚开始...
当你无意间踏入新世界，
发现新的事物时，
你会很感兴趣...
很新鲜感...
很期待会遇到怎样的事物，
即将发生的惊喜...
相反的...
你也会存在着害怕，
担心会遇到不幸的，
惊险的事物...
人类心里的矛盾...
期待惊喜，却又怕失望的感觉~
但你会试着接受还是逃避...？
我会选择接受，
接受可以得到更多不一样的...
不管是酸，甜，苦，辣...
就算伤痕累累也是值得的，
因为这也是人生的一部分...
即使是惨痛的回忆...
在未来的日子回想起，
都会回味无穷...
因为不在乎拥有多少，好坏，
只在乎曾经拥有和过程...
可是当日子久了...
那股新鲜开始消失了，
就开始慢慢的感到厌倦了...
厌倦的开始，
就会想着试着逃避了...

P/S：要勇于接受，不要懦弱选择逃避~

2009-08-01T11:20:00.005+08:00

现状的我...

最近的心情都不知怎样的...
连自己想要什么都不知道...
现状的我...
糟透了~
摸不着自己的思索，
失去了方向，
不知该往哪走~
情绪也跟着失去控制，
心情时好时坏，
变化无常的...

该怎么平复下来呢...？

身边的人与事物，
也改变了，
马不停蹄的成长着...
可是现在的我累了，
再也不想去理了...
我终于放下了我坚持很久的信念了...
可是累得感觉为何还存在着呢...？

P/S：要学会放下不属于自己的~

2009-07-28T20:57:00.007+08:00

27/07

PMR TriaL的关系，
所以今天没有周会...
大家就留在班闹咯...
忽然Joshua从外面说，
有老师吩咐我们去PhysicsLab上AddMath哦~
可是还有10分钟就要换节了，
大家都在质疑到底是否还得下去呢...
下到去，才发现老师摆乌龙了~
班主任缺席了~
之后的中国文学的老师又缺席~
Haiz~
又无聊地过了两节咯~
今天满疲惫的，
作什么事都提不起精神的...
今天终于不用我烦恼午餐吃什么了...

可是却吃得很匆忙咯，
因为这餐厅还有半小时就暂停营业哦~
可怜的~
今天的补习没学到什么叻...
真对不起我的“老师”...
补完后我真的真的顶不住了，
就倒在床上睡着了~
哇~
起床时已7pm+了~
今天满多功课的，12am+才完成~
休息一下就“开工”...
怎知稀客找我叻，
已超就没联络我的YeeSamBro咯~
Bro call我第一次是没接到，
怕自己失望Bro打错电话或什么之类的~
之后他又打来了，
超开心的Bro陪我熬夜~
Bro还是将热情哦~
亏我没选错Bro哦~
Luv You Too，Bro~
我没想到Bro还会在乎我把他当Bro没有叻~
我告诉Bro：“Since Bro 4rever My Bro...”
我们聊了很多很多哦~
我的心情也因为Bro而开朗，轻松了~
Thx ya，Bro~

P/S：希望我和Bro的感情和友谊NeverEnd~

2009-07-28T19:59:00.003+08:00

什么是累...？

自从上了Form5后，
才真真领悟到什么是累...
这种累不止是肉体上而已，
还有精神上的
这种累真叫人折腾，
因为它会使你无法全神关注地做事，
也会使你什么事都不想去理，
甚至很轻易放弃，什么也完成不了~
加上SPM越来越近的压力，
更使我精疲力尽了
做什么事都很敷衍了~
怎么办好...？
到底有什么可以激发我的努力，
使我忘记累呢...？

2009-07-26T16:34:00.006+08:00

26/07

昨晚4am+写完要给朋友的话才入睡，
今天8am就起床了，
因为有补习咯~
超不想离开我的睡床...
睡眠不足难免会心情不好...
所以弟，不好意思一大早向你发了小脾气...
早餐爸妈要去店帮忙，
我就和弟一起去McDonald吃早餐咯~
接着11.20am就去补习咯...
Haiz~
没有死党的补习，
自己一个人等，坐~
好失落，好空虚，好没安全感哦~
约定一起坐的朋友身边都坐满了，
只好做WeiLi和Fchin的电灯泡咯~
哇~
1pm放学咯~
就和朋友聊了一下，
然后带Amanda去店看下，
她买了双拖鞋~
灰色的哦~
原来她也是灰色的粉丝哦~
谢咯，朋友~
忽然觉得好累好累哦...
之后跟弟去逛下，
我看中了一双灰色Levis的帆布鞋，
超喜欢的，就去试咯...
结果没我要的Size...
气死我了...
年头就开始留意要买新鞋的，
看中了Converse的，
可是却发现身边有好多人穿着这款鞋...
算咯~
就想说再找别Brand的咯~
怎知找到了却没Size~
超失望叻~
Haiz~

P/S：希望我要的它赶快出现啊~

2009-07-26T02:07:00.004+08:00

Just For Who My Fren Are Moody~

事情都已成定局就别再回望过去了~
因该学会如何面对将来...
我以前认识的你是个坚强，很正面的朋友...
不管遇到什么事，你都会用最正面的去面对，解决...
以前的你去了哪...？
迷失了方向吗...？
听到你现在那么负面的状况，
很想帮你做些什么，
但却发现自己力不从心，
什么也帮不了，
只能给你词面上的鼓励和支持...
请原谅我的无能为力~
真的真的希望你能开心回...
你没有了他，但你身边还有一帮朋友的~
我知道你不容易相信朋友...
但我可以很肯定地告诉你，
只要你有需要或有困难，
我们一定会在你身边陪伴，帮助和支持你的~
请你要相信我们~
不要在自我麻醉了，
该醒觉了~
不要再找借口给自己，
尽快放下手中所紧握的残留的回忆吧~
将它收到心里的最深处吧~~

P/S：在适当的时候要学会放手~

2009-07-26T01:39:00.009+08:00

Just For My Forever Captain~

在这之前你给我的印象，
就只是个重色情友的朋友...
在你脑海就只有爱情吧，
朋友对你来说有无都可吧！！！
我也承认我不喜欢那样的你~
抱歉哦~
希望你不要介意哦~
但现在的你令我改观了...
自从上次一起看戏后...
我发现你变了好多哦...
变得体贴了，
变得重视朋友了~
或许这优点已隐藏在你身上很久了，
只是我没去留意和发掘吧~
因为我觉得没有必要把心思放在跟我没默契的朋友身上，
他/她是不会珍惜的~
我替你开心，你终于放下了，
也发现了生命里，
除了亲情，朋友是最可贵的~
无论发生什么事情，
开心的，伤心的...
身为朋友的我们会陪着你，给你支持和鼓励~
希望你能感受到我们友谊的温暖~
Gambatehx~~
希望你开心噢~
Smile~~~

P/S：要永远开心哦~

2009-07-25T10:54:00.007+08:00

这样的我，是好...？是坏...？

很多朋友都觉得我身边满多朋友的（我不认为咯~）...
对我来说他/她们只是个过客...
因为他/她们只会在你感到开心时才出现，
需要到你时才可以靠近你，

以博取你的帮助...
我不喜欢虚情假意的人...
不喜欢被人敷衍，
我宁愿你直接告诉我，你不想...
不喜欢被人开空头机票，
我宁愿你开门见山说做不到...
不喜欢听随便，你喜欢啦，Ok lo~
感觉很敷衍，很不甘愿的...

所以不是每个人都能得到我承认...

在我心目中朋友对我来说非常重要，
我可以很肯定地说比任何东西都重要...
我可以为朋友作任何事，

只要那请求不过分...
不认识真正我的人，

刚开始都会觉得我很不友善，
觉得我所说的话很伤人，刺人...
可是我所说的都是我真心话啊...
所以请那些想听好听的话的人离我远点！！！
因为我就是这样，不会为任何人改变~
所以很感谢那些留在我身边当我的朋友的你们...
很感谢你们受得了和包容我的所有...
我不会在意别人对我的看法，意见和不满~
因为我有你们这班死党已经很满足了，很开心了...
我很在意你们对我的看法，意见，满不满意我这朋友~
不止如此，我也很在意我在你们心目中的地位...
我希望自己在你们心目中是永远第一个可以给于帮助，支持...
不管是在开心，伤心，失望，
寂寞，无助，需要帮助，
有心事时，都会第一个想到我~
可是我发现我并不是，
才发现我的存在感是多么的渺小...
Haiz~
难道我就那么不可靠吗...？
真的真的很想亲耳听见你们的答案会是怎样...
可是我没有那份勇气...
我怕那答案不是我想要的...
这时的我好软弱哦~
相反的~
我也好希望朋友可以重视我，
在我需要朋友的时候，
给我关心，贴心的依靠，
了解我想什么和要得是什么...
因为我真的真的真的好累了，好疲倦了...
也有想过什么都不去理了...
为什么呢...？
为什么就是没有一位朋友能给到我~
是我自己的问题吗...？
我要求太多了，太高了吗...？
Haiz~
好累好累好累哦~

2009-07-24T12:20:00.006+08:00

24/07

发冷了两天，今天终于发烧了~
或许是星期二的决定做错了...
放学才发现下雨了，
心想酱小雨，因该没什么大碍吧！
反正我多习惯了淋雨...
就和朋友淋着雨跑去车...
忽然满大雨的，
可是没法咯，都走到一半了...
就将全身都湿了，
还好今天有带到小毛巾叻...
回到家又没立刻冲凉咯，
Haiz~
结果感冒了...
昨天还去打球
打球前没做热身，
加上今天的练习满激烈的，
又Blockin又Spike的，
结果脚抽筋了3次...
没有Blockin习惯+超累的我，
很敷衍地跳两下带过...
教练好像很不爽我的不认真...
他还说：“欣茹，你就只能跳酱高吗？”
打完后，教练还说：你的Spike，Tappin去了哪里？”
惨咯~
退步了，酱差了...
超伤心的咯~
Boring~
最近没以前将活跃练球了，
身子变得好弱，好弱...
心情也变得变幻无常...
在这时候好想找个朋友依靠，
可是身边的朋友的肩膀都挑着担子，
那忍心再加重她们的负担呢...
还是自己给她们依靠吧...
虽然会很累，但她们值得...
超不爽的~
本来很小件事的，很容易解决的...
就是因为那无谓的小人咯...
每天只会有的没的在那嚷~
总是喜欢找我碴~
烦死了~
糟糕的一天~

2009-07-21T23:49:00.005+08:00

失望

或许是在错的时间，做了错的决定吧！
才会给自己带来不必要的烦恼，失望...
其实我也习惯了，所以失望对我也没什么影响了~
所以习惯在不同情况，也有它好的一面...
习惯了受伤，再被伤害，
也无伤大雅了~
所以我会尽量去习惯所有的习惯...
习惯也将会是我的保护...

无奈

曾经的承诺~
如今已破碎了...
是时候觉悟了，虽然已经太迟了~
原来一个人可以为了保护他/她身边的人，
而忽略另一个人的感受，
简单来说因该是删略那受害人的感受吧！
被伤害了，受伤的明明是自己，
但却还要因为他/她的自私的请求，
当着没这回事的发生...
这种滋味一点都不好受，甚至可以说超难受的。
就像被砸碎的玻璃，
一片片地破碎而掉到很深很深的黑洞里...！！！
那颗原本完好的心灵，永远都找不回了，也粘不回了...
就让它消失吧~
这种伤痛只要一次，就只仅仅一次，
就足以令自己遍体鳞伤。

P/S：伤痛的恐惧，铭记永远~

2009-07-19T12:43:00.013+08:00

我的至爱挚爱的NichoLas的音乐会~
（18/07）

我永远都不会忘记今天的~
我终于去到我至爱的Nic的音乐会叻...
超超超超开心，兴奋的...
虽然去时经过很多困难...
但我还是没后悔,
还觉得很值得...
没去到才是遗憾叻...
谢谢Zwei的陪伴哦...
不然这将会成为我的第三个遗憾...
真有点过意不去...
累成死鱼了，
还要当我的水鱼...
Hehe~

音乐会8pm开始...
先由来自马来西亚，新加坡，
台湾和中国的歌迷后援会以[男人不坏]的歌编成舞作为opening~
哇~
Nic终于出场咯~
超帅，超可爱，超亲切的，
超喜欢Nic阳光般的灿烂笑容~
Nic很搞笑咯~
一出场就问要听什么歌，
然后又说还没到点歌时段~
第一首歌是他最爱的,[爱你胜过自己]...
My God~
有被电到的感觉（夸张，不过是真的）~
现场果然是不一样哦~
超好听，超感动的~
果然是情歌王子~
哈哈~
接着唱我最最最最爱的，[低调]...
哇~
听了现场更加爱这首歌~
现场的歌迷超搞笑的，
一直喊Nic唱[情花开]~
可惜现场没准备到，就没唱咯
身为歌迷的我们，
那可能就如此轻易放过他呢，
大家就喊起清唱...
惨咯~
清唱更warm的感觉！
听他唱歌真的超幸福的~
哈哈~
之后Nic唱[男人不坏]时，
还叫opening的歌迷伴舞叻~
羡慕死咯~
接着Nic唱了一首对我有特别意义的歌，
[说你也一样爱着我]~
之前有一个朋友觉得这个的歌词很像我，
所以他将它送给我...
也很巧的，每次我跟他一起时，
电台都播这首歌的~
我自己也超喜欢这歌~
Haiyo~
基本上只要是Nic的歌我就超爱超爱~
除了新歌，Nic也有唱旧歌...
之前的专辑，[王子]，[当你孤单你会想起谁]~
哇~
果然是王子哦，连唱歌都有王子的绅士风度的味道...
唱完这首后，主持人就问Nic东西~
Nic说他比较喜欢低调的王子之类的，
也谢谢歌迷的低调...
超幽默的，超“亲迷”的（原本是亲民）~
当Nic说要结束时，
大家就马上喊acho咯，使他没法了~
在歌迷要求下Nic唱[我们都有错]，[错了在错] ，[Sempurna]~
就连Nic他致命“歌”之一，[付出]也唱叻...
Nic每次唱[付出]，[如果]，[爸爸妈妈]都会忍不住的~
因为是他的经验，贴身的感受，

也是为他量身订造的~
可是昨天Nic很坚强~
永远支持NichoLas~~~
之后我还跟他握手，签名了~
他的经纪人不给拍照，
不过给我近距离拍到，
可是的是只拍到侧面~
侧面也很帅哦~
超开心的~
和Nic握手，还对视了几秒叻~
从开场到结束，
Nic都是保持这那迷人，灿烂，温馨的笑容~
越来越迷和爱他了...
怎么办？
哈哈~
满悲的今天~
才刚开场没几久，
相机就没电了...
算咯~
就用Zwei的咯...
她的很蒙，拍不清楚...
超超超超失望的~
眼镜没带，
看不清楚Nic演唱时的每个表情 ...
就连特地买的帽子Nic_ _ _ _ _，
打算要给他本人亲手填满它的~
太多了，
不写了，就写到此吧~
如有任何遗漏，
其原谅哦~

P/S：超开心~

永远爱：NichoLas~~

Muackxx~~

2009-07-15T19:16:00.004+08:00

不想笑的开始（15/07）

烦死了啦~
每次都最后一分钟才得到通知，
只有一个星期的时间准备...
都已经很头痛了...
现在她还给我添麻烦 ...
真是火上加油~
本打算拍了的班级片由我Edit的，
怎知她又抢着说她弄...
好啦~
很开心，不用我烦了...
结果今天她说没空弄，
转手就将烂摊子pass给我...
超级不爽咯...
然后又得到一个坏消息~~~
Trial提早了...
都是那些姓马的猪咯...
听到后，
整个身子的重量忽然重了...
有如一个千斤般巨石压在肩膀上...
呼吸不了，快要窒息了~
烦，烦，烦~
之后Dad又很不体谅我，
在我心情最不好时叫我那样这样的...
都算啦...
毕竟他是我最敬爱的Dad...
他还讲了我一顿...
另我的心情掉到谷底...
头脑顿时有种想死的冲动...
很不明白...
难道他们就不能体谅下，
给下意见或鼓励之类的吗？
我自己都自身难保，
还要我去帮忙别人~
Lolx~

2009-07-13T20:55:00.005+08:00

12/07

Haiz~
难得星期日能多睡一会，
却被吵醒去店帮忙开店~
Boring lolx~
然后下午就和Vivian她们去看戏~
去看我超超超超期待的戏，
Transformers . Revenge of the fallen ~
之前一直约不到朋友去看~
原打算自己看的咯~
怎知却有稀客约哦~
等3个星期也是值得哦~
哈哈~
第一次跟她们看戏叻~
感觉怪怪的，有些不自然~
哈哈~
Vivian跟我同坐，Fchin就和Pineapple坐咯~
他们很sweet哦~~~
我和Vivian也不差，也满“sweet”哦~
跟她酱多年朋友+队友~
她可是第一次约我出去玩叻，是第一次+主动哦~
很感动咯~
爱死你了，我可爱的Vivian~
哈哈~
除此，我也发现她细心的一面哦~
谢谢你那天温暖的冷衣哦~
第2集的Transformers，
没有我想象中好看~
有些失望哦~

期待：HarryPotter~~
朋友们，约好咯~
希望：不会被放飞机~

2009-07-10T13:55:00.002+08:00

10/07

昨天刚去调整牙套，
之后晚餐还吃鸡肉叻...
还吃的满爽哦~
结果...！！！
今天就惨咯~
忘了带止痛药去上学...
没得止痛，
整天只好被牙痛折磨~
整个人都没心情了...
早上时还好只是右边的牙在痛~
之后那阵阵的痛就漫延到头了，
头痛又开始了~
这就是绑牙的痛苦啊~
今天早餐已没吃，
怎知下课有没得下~
被那Physics老师留堂~
因为那module和note不完整咯~
然后就和朋友去升学展咯~
牙痛+头痛，
今天的展览都没问到什么...
就连午餐也吃不下~
Haiz~
今天有够soi的~
活该~
听到这字眼就不爽~

2009-07-09T20:29:00.015+08:00

09/07

一早心情都满好的~
不过，忽然MOody了，
当我一走下楼看到Fchin的眼眶红红的，
因该是哭过来吧~
Vvian站在她身旁安慰着她~
我和宁Shan就很好奇，
也很担心她...
怎么一大早就哭叻...
就问Vvian咯~
原来是......
就安慰她咯~
在礼堂时，
看到她的心情好像已平复了，
就没酱担心她了~
Haiz~
之后，就和宁Shan去找Zwei咯...
办完事后，本打算再去看下Fchin的...
可是忽然想起有事要做，
就赶快跑回班咯~
要去上Bio，在下楼时又看到Fchin~
她又出状况了~
她的心情简直失去了控制~
看到她那压力和抗拒的状态，
真令人心痛和担心她叻~
希望她可以放轻松~
要开心噢~
Haiz~
今天有够惨的咯~
要找全部的Club的GuruPenasihat签名哦~
我连她们长什么样子，叫什么名都不只叻~
身为财政，秘书，副秘书的我，
真的有够失败的咯~
碰了几次钉，
最后终于在下课前搞定~
Huu~
今天又去练球了~
一去到学校不久，就下雨了~
又没球哦~
真无聊的~
CLynn不知发什么神经的~
一直牵住我到处跟人说我们在一起很久了~
还说不要不好意思地啦~
搞到我都不好意思面对人了~
重点是当我说她，她尽然眼红红叻~
真够服了她~
Haiyo~
不知怎么的...？
我们一碰面总是不欢而散的...
或许问出现在我身上吧...
还是我们注定就是酱呢...？
Haiz~
或许时间能解释这一切吧~

2009-07-08T20:36:00.006+08:00

08/07

今天又没去上学哦~
一早起床就觉得头还痛，
还很昏叻...
心想可能是昨晚太迟才入睡，
所以应该是睡眠不足吧~
冲凉，梳洗完后，
还是觉得整个人轻飘飘，昏昏的，
像在太空漫游似的...
然后慢慢走下楼，
想说吃了早餐应该会好些吧~
怎知还是死样...
算了~
今天学校有火警演习，
我酱的死样都是别去为妙...
然后倒下去睡了~
一睡就睡到12pm+才起床...
洗完澡后，就去吃东西~
吃了药后就看了一会电视，
然后和朋友msg咯~
直到3.30pm+，
打给Amy问她功课，也和她聊了一会儿...
Haha~
之后就边做功课，边msg咯~
不知怎么的，
忽然moody起来，
很担心功课哦~
最近一直生病没去上学的~
KC就已经missed 2课，
P.Moral的UN也missed 2 bidang~
Cham lolx~
到了7pm+
婆婆和小姑来了...
哇~
婆婆带了好多自家种的水果叻~
有Dad的最爱的榴莲...
当然也少不了我的最爱，
不过不好意思我不知它的名称...
Hehe~
噢，还有老妈最爱的山竹和红毛丹...
婆婆还很细心的酱它们剥了，
放进盒里哦~
很感动叻~
谢谢哦~
爱死你了，婆婆~
吃了晚餐后，
大家就到店去了~
呜呜~
朋友讲电话时，
忽然讲到那水果，
提到公公的胶园，
间接性让我想起...
我小时候，公公整天带我和弟弟到他的胶园...
今天我所吃的特别品种的榴莲就是他老人家在离开我，
去了天国的前2年所种植的~
他老人家可是花了很多心思，心血和时间去打理那胶园~
回想起心里就酸溜溜的~
忽然好好好好想念他，老人家哦~
他那慈祥，可爱，温柔的模样~
永远永远永远都会留在我脑海最深处的~
也很内疚一件事，
这也可能成为我一生的遗憾~

2009-07-08T20:14:00.006+08:00

07/07

Haiz~~
今天很惨叻~
因为昨天被老师捉刘海，
所以今天要夹刘海去学校哦~
超丑超奇怪的...
讨厌啊~
Haiz~
一去到学校就不想抬头了~
以一步并成两步的去班上...
今天整天都没心情，
闷闷不乐地上完课回家...
之后打开MyFm，
心里更不爽了~
我又错过了~
Haiz~
然后还在生气...
说帮我，
可是却没有行动...
超不爽的...
既然你酱忙，酱不得空，
就不要答应说帮我忙...
而且我不喜欢勉强人~
不知是不是火药“烧”着了~
觉得额头有少少烫，
全身烧烧的~
还有不知怎么的，
手指麻麻的，
动到东西还会痛的~
怪怪的~~

2009-07-07T22:26:00.006+08:00

06/07

倒霉的一天~
莫名其妙地被训导老师捉...
我很肯定我没犯什么错，
以我的性格就算要判我刑也得令我信服口服...
所以我就问她：“老师，请问我有犯了什么校规吗...？”
她回答我说：“你的刘海过眉毛了...”
Hey~
老师，我已很守规矩了...
我的刘海才长过了一点就捉我...
还说什么给我很多次机会了，有的没的...
我就反驳说：“我可是第一次咯。”
她交我给另一个训导老师，
过后就去check record 咯~
Hahaha~
一大开我的record 看...
自从2007年迟到2分，ponteng perhimpuanan 5分，
就在也没了，而且都被删除了~
所以她说什么捉过我很多次的，
她简直就认错人了吧~
Haiz~
她满好人的~
没写进record扣分，
只是给个Amaran...
我还忘了带AddMath作业叻~
然后P.Sivik又被老师记ponteng~
Haiz~~

2009-07-05T21:24:00.004+08:00

05/07

哇~开心~
终于有水供应了，
可以慢慢享受热水澡了~
哈哈~
Haiz~
又浪费了一天的时间...
本打算做下课外功课的，
怎知今天整天都没心情的~
今天整天待在房里听NIC的歌~
本来就已经超喜欢听，
现在越听越爱NIC了~
Hehe~
今天翻阅报章，
看到我已期待已久的，
我的至爱NIC要开音乐会叻哦~
Wahahaha~
超兴奋，超开心的~
当我看到要到TimeSquare换票，没得买票时，
就超级超级失望的咯...
不爽咯~
因为在这段时期我怎可能去TimeSquare叻~
Haiz~
忽然想到gor在TimeSquare上课，
就call他，
call了好久都没人接...
心情更加失落了~
难道就酱和NIC的音乐会擦身而过嘛...
Haiz~
真是一场欢喜一场空~
讨厌啊~~
不写了~
晚安~

2009-06-30T20:20:00.006+08:00

27/06

今天是学校家长会校了~
今天比以往迟去...
因为本人不小心睡迟了...
Hehe~
由于迟了，加上小学也是家长会校了...
所以很塞车和很难找parking~
Dad兜了好几圈都找不到parking...
Dad开始不耐烦了，加上Dad肚子又饿...
Haiz~
最后Dad把车停放在比我平时停的地方还要远叻~
一到校园，我指着6楼告诉Dad，
我的班就在那最尾端的课室...
Dad脸色都变了，Dad还说不如你请你老师下来建我吧~
冷~真服了Dad~
Haha~
见了老师，老师说：“erm，XinLu is a good student，very active...”
Dad对我笑了一下...
之后就到档口找老妈，姑~
3pm就去补习咯~
今天Amy和翠Beng都迟到叻...
补习时，CY和CJ不停作弄Amy和我~
放学后，就赶紧回家...
因为还得赶第二场补习叻~
好累好饿噢~
感觉有点奇怪的~
或许教补习的是认识的关系吧...
刚开始时我好笨的感觉，怎么做也不会...
还好没笨的完，就后还是给我搞定了...
开心~
由于家里没煮，只好等弟弟回来一起去吃晚餐咯~
Haiz~
最近“老毛病”又犯了~
胃痛，哮喘全都回来了~
我不想再过以前那痛苦即可怕的生活了...
所以我决定了，就算在怎么忙和累，
都必须去打打球，运动下~
可是我很怕~
每当跟她们打球和提起打球的事情，
自己就会变得很没信心自卑和被冷落的感觉~
还会很压力~
或许是因为自己差她们太了多吧~
晚上，胃突然很痛恨不舒服...
Haiz~

28/06

今天没什么特别好写~
在家咯~
一直到7pm+，Zwei到我家~
刚好Dad说要出去吃晚餐，
去载了老妈就到99吃晚餐咯~
那天满多人的，找到了位子就坐下~
在到处望望想要吃什么时，
突然觉得前方那人的背影好熟悉...
就走向前看，原来是Mickey~
Haha~
然后就跑回去叫Zwei一起搬过去陪Mickey坐咯...
Mickey刚打完AND1比赛，
没带key，家人又出去了...
所以Mickey从6pm+就一个人坐在这了~
恭喜Mickey哦，得第三名叻~
吃饱饱后就会家咯~
可是Mickey的家人还没来接她哦~
回到家就回房...
Zwei的家人还没来接她...
很她聊了一会，也劝了她...
希望她能乐观点~

29/06

今天超不爽的~
Pn.Chang把我和Amy分开坐，
她把我们分开坐不是我生气的重点...
我生气地重点是，
她为什么会“聪明”到如此“可爱”的极点咯~
是她自己之前说什么不能3个人已排的，
如今她将我跟两位男生合并起来，
也不就和之前一样嘛...
明知道我们班男生多，怎样一定会有一排是3人式的，
干什么要劳师动众的...
烦死人~
今天我班的Jack生日叻~
生日快乐噢~
今天提早了1.45小时放学~
当我决定了回家，和Amy走出了校园，
我才发现我忘了要载Wwei...
所以我又很无奈地走回校园等她放学~
回到家后，超饿的~
想说回到家就能吃饱饱的，
怎知“她”尽然没准备午餐叻~
Yo~
不爽，跑去冲凉就睡觉了~
Haiz~
本想今天晚餐应该会吃满多...
怎知一打开盖子，我就没胃口了~
就酱晚餐只吃了几口~
最好都是你啊，弟弟（Win）从PasarMalam打包了一些食物给我~
Win还不忘打包了我最爱的Soya叻~
开心~

30/06

烦死人~
他们老是叫我去帮忙顾店的...
不然就把我当成司机，
叫我载那个这个去补习的...
讨厌~
我讨厌这种生活~
Haiz~
今天没什么特别的，
所以不写了~
晚安~

灰色的世界，空白的心情~

2009-06-25T23:36:00.005+08:00

最近很多事烦啊~
姑姑的新摊位要开张了...
要去帮忙...
学校又有一堆堆的课业要决绝...
朋友之间又忽然产生了许多摩擦...
家里又有一大堆琐碎的事烦...
烦啊~
交朋友就有如自找麻烦...
他和她说得很对...
世界上只有自己是最可靠的...
除了自己，再也没有人值得信任和依赖了...
以前思想很单纯和天真...
觉得只要对朋友真心地好，
朋友也会真心对待自己...
事实上这概念是错的~
来到现实社会才发现，自己很渺小...
甚至可说渺小到连一粒沙都不如...
我不想再做傻瓜了...
不想再把心思放到无谓事上，
不想再遍体鳞伤了~
我的疲倦已到了极限...

忧闷~

2009-06-24T20:43:00.007+08:00

昨晚又失眠了~
平时一倒下床就能进入梦乡，
从小就安枕无忧的我...
如今尽然失眠...
到底怎么回事啊~~
以前常听见身边的朋友说失眠...
会很好奇...
到底怎样是失眠，为什么失眠...
睡觉是多么容易的事，不必思考什么的，
只要躺在床上有能一觉睡到天亮了...
现在的我终于明白了...
失眠的痛苦...！！！
每次的见面就意味着它存在...
虽然我已摆脱了它俩年多，甚至也渐渐地忘了它的存在...
可是最近我发现了它的存在...
这种感觉令我感到很不安...
我尝试过忽略它，但最近好像越来越严重了...
也没办法再逃避它了...
是时候面对它了~
或许失眠=它的出现+无形的压力吧~

上学了~
偷懒了俩天，今天终于去上学了~
好久没闻到早晨那新鲜的空气了...
今天一到班上就不停被人追问，
为什么没来，是不是也被隔离了，有的没的...
不过当然也有几位关心的问候...
有LuLu，雪霓，Hchuang等...
谢谢你们的关心噢~
很累哦~
今天有俩个老师没来...
整个班乱七八糟的...
Haiz~
今天本来打算不去补习的...
可是我不忍心抛弃翠Beng一个人补习...
最后改变了主意，去补习咯...
今天补习时不小心了火了一位朋友~
她生气了~
我tam了她很久，她还是生我的气...
就算犯了错，也得给一次机会别人改吧...
更何况我是第一次，也是在不知道情况下...
以我的以前的心格，我肯定100%不睬她...
但这次我没有，我还向她道歉叻~
算了不写了~
没心情了~

晚安~

没去上学的俩天~~

2009-06-23T21:08:00.003+08:00

22/06

今天一起床就觉得头重重地，还有些烫...
所以就赶快打电话给老妈...
我跟老妈说今天不驾车去上学了，叫她载...
怎知她却叫我睡迟些7am才驾车去...
Walao~
我眼前的景象不停的旋转，你叫我哪敢驾驶噢~
我自己死就好了，不想连累无辜的人叻~
所以趁机偷懒没去上学...
Hehe~~
决定不去后我再打了通电话给老妈...
之后慢慢走下楼那Penadol吃，然后就倒回床睡了~
睡了好一会儿，就起床了~
梳洗完毕，就到楼下找东西吃~
吃过粥后，跑上楼发现有俩封新信息~
一封是是宁Shan的，一封是Zwei的...
通过Zwei，我才晓得宁Shan有亲戚被感染了H1N1...
被隔离了，所以整个星期的留在家~
真可怜~
其实我也好不了宁Shan多少的咯~
今天谢谢你哦，Zwei~
谢谢你的问候和陪伴~
不要不开心了啦~
既然你已作了决定~
暂时搁在一旁，专注在课业上吧~
加油~
我和宁Shan会支持你的~
到了晚上，我打电话给Amy...
问她今天上什么，又什么功课...
她才问我为什么今天没来的...
真服了她，跟她同座俩年了叻...
她尽然问候我都得我打去...
觉得自己很没地位~
不管是在学校，班上或是朋友都是如此~
算了~
今天我做了个决定~
我也验收了我的决定，是对的...
开心~~~~
我还跟gor讲了1.45+分钟电话叻~
是有史以来有长的通话~

23/06
今天又待在家，已俩天待在家了...

因为昨天我有轻微的发烧，是H1N1病毒的征兆之一...

所以我被家人隔离...
除了吃饭时，其他时刻都得戴口罩叻~
还惨过宁Shan~
我Dad还说要带我去Sg.Buloh（H1N1的总部）做检查叻...
夸张到~
真服了他咯~
因为我诸多借口，最后Dad拿我没法，所以没去到
Hehe~~
今天我收到满多朋友的问候
有美Yee的，她之前说016信息012很贵，都信息好几封问候我叻~
谢谢你的关心噢~
感动~~
Hchuang，亏我跟他同班俩年，今天才问候我...
不过算在你一早就信息我y一瓯诚意，原谅你啦~
哈哈~~
宁Shan，哈哈~我没事了，用不着你的antibodies~
不过还是要谢谢你的关心噢~
你也要注意自己的健康噢~
乃Yin，傻婆打来陪我聊了一会，帮我解解闷~
谢谢哦，sot婆~
哈哈~~
还有PH.Ong叻~
满惊讶的，看到她的来信~
谢谢你哦，我会照顾自己的~
好了不写了~
朋友们，明天见~
晚安咯~

20/06

2009-06-21T22:42:00.005+08:00

今天有两件令我很开心的事哦~~
虽然今天一早就被妈吵醒...
超不爽的，难得星期六能睡晚些...
老妈交待完毕差事，我又倒回床睡了...
Hehe~
刚睡下去不久，电话就响了~~
Zwei打来问我要不要一起去唱K...
我拒绝了，因为我答应了老妈要载我弟去补习...
讨厌~
12.40pm载我弟去补习后，就去吃“早餐”...
之后就待在家看电视节目~
怎知转了好几频道都没我喜欢的...
算了，我把电视给关了...
跑上楼开电脑上网，怎知又上不到~
Sianz lolx~~
都不知今天怎么搞得，事事不如意...
什么都没得做，就躲回房咯...
到2.30pm我就去载那麻烦的人去我姑家...
接着直接去补习...
Haiz~
兜了好几圈都找不到car park（预料中）...
越兜越不耐烦了，就停在一旁...
然后打给宁Shan诉苦...
电话接通后，没确定是否是宁Shan，我就一口气说完我要说的东西...
当我把话说完后才发现接电话的不是宁Shan，而是Zwei...
Paiseh到~~
找到car park，parking好后，就去McDonald meet朋友...
走到McDonald时，发现那前面就有两个空位~
气死我了~
当我正不爽时...
我看到Zwei拿出我至爱的栋梁的新专辑~
哇，她帮我买到了也~~
开心死我了，当时什么气都消了~
谢谢你哦，Zwei~
muackxx~~
补习时，心里一直想快快放学~
快快打开看专辑里的资料和照片...
补完习回到家按电话才发现...
补着习时，Hying打过给我...
Zwei的信息...
宁Shan的信息，说答应了Hying她们今晚一起喝茶...
我一直耿耿于怀的心事终于决绝了~
在比赛时（MSSS），Beckham突然对我不理不睬...
真的很可怕咯...
毕竟多一个朋友，总比多以个敌人好吧~
我跟她满有缘地，一拍即合...
她满好人地，满热情，也满幽默的~
我的朋友还以为我跟她是认识了很久的朋友叻...
其实我和她只认识了2天~~~
我真的不想失去这朋友...
所以比赛后我有尝试联络她，但失败~
今天喝茶她也有来，我们之间的问题决绝了~
我们又像刚开始认识时那样聊天~
开心~
真的真的超开心的~~
跟她们（Hying，Beckham，宁Shan，乃Ying，乃Zii）一起的时刻...
跟她们一起时什么都能聊一餐，笑一餐的~
还是小声讲大声开怀笑的那种，一点形象都不顾~
真是的~
好了不写了~
不得空了~~
要去听我至爱NicHolaS的专辑了咯~
Hehehe~~

大家，晚安咯~

开学了~

2009-06-20T00:51:00.002+08:00

今天又失眠了~~
自开学后，几乎每天都失眠...
不知为什么？！？！
身心都已感到很疲惫到不行了，但还是无发入眠~
Haiz~~
肩膀上的负担又重了些似的~
SPM越来越近了，开始感觉到一股一股压力的气息...
那一股股的气息多得几乎令我无法呼吸...
甚至想停止呼吸...
这次的成绩很不理想...
虽然有好几科进步了，但我最为关注的科目却没有达到我所要求的...
我放了很多努力和时间在那科，可是却令我最伤心和最失望...
惨了~
今天补习老师给我们考试...
一打开开卷，我就开始担心和忧虑了...
因为我看不懂，也不知道题目在问什么，就算懂也不知道怎样下笔...
Haiz~~

烦恼~

2009-06-12T00:07:00.031+08:00

对人太诚恳，反而会伤害到自己，而且这种伤害的伤口是永远复合不了的，就算复合的了，也会永远留着一道隐隐作痛的疤痕和回忆。
就算用一生或再多的时间也无法弥补和还原曾经被伤害过的伤口。
在需要帮助的时候尽然没有一位朋友站出来，在伤心的时候尽然找不到一个诉苦的朋友。
难道朋友就只会在你开心的时候出现...？
而在你伤心的时候却离你而去...？
难道这就是我们口中所说的朋友吗...？

这也配叫朋友吗...？
难道友情就只有如廉价商品般，用完了或没利用价值后，便可随手丢弃吗...？

或许朋友对某些人来说并不重要，有无皆可...
可是对我来说朋友在我心中占了很重要和很大的地位...
可以说是缺少了朋友就没有生活的意义了...

所以朋友叫到只要我能帮得上忙得，我都会尽我所能...
我相信只要我对他/她好，他/她一定会感受到...
我也相信只要我对他/她好，他/她也会对我好...

从小学就抱着这种信念交朋友...
一直坚持着这种信念到一个陌生的中学上学...
希望能在新的环境找到新方向...
这种坚持会令人发奋前进，也会令人陷入无底洞...
坚持无形中会令喘不过气，有时真的很想放下手中所坚持的...

什么事情也不理，独自生活...

有时真的不明白酱坚持到底是为了什么...

对别人的好，人家并不在乎...

到底怎麽一回事呢...？

我超越了危险界线吗...？

突然很怕失去他~

很讨厌他答应了我的事没当一会事给忘了~

很生气发信息给他，他没回复~

很在意他所说的每句话~

很想知道他最近忙什么~

有关他的事都很想知道，了解~

但又很害怕他突然对我的好~

因为当他和我很好时，心里就会发出一个奇妙的信息：

他是不是有事想求...

他是不是想从我这得到什么信息...

他是不是想问我她的事...

这时心里会很矛盾，要不要答他呢...？

我很自私，不想跟别人分享，更何况我认识的...

很怕他重色轻友，忽略了我！！！

很烦啊...！！！

宁Shan说我是不是喜欢上他了~

不可能吧！！！

我觉得我一直以来都是很重视他...

只是我最近太得空了吧，占有欲又发作了...

而且是越来越严重了...！！！

除了怕失去他，也很怕失去你们~

会觉得心灵突然空了一块~

因为没有练球了，就没了共同的兴趣...

见面，相处的时间也少了...

在这学校我就得你们这班朋友比较聊的...

跟你们一起的时光是最开心的...

谢谢你们给我的每一回忆~~

不管是开心的，伤心的，都是我生活的精彩...

我会永远记得这一切~~~

10/06

2009-06-11T00:19:00.004+08:00

烂心情~~~

Terminator煲汤了~
最后改变了行程去逛街而已...
Haiz~
一早起床就觉得有些怪怪的，说不出是怎样的心情...
或许是前晚停电，很晚才睡所以睡眠不足吧...
准备要出门时，由于家人要去吃早餐，所以延迟了...
不喜欢别人迟到，不喜欢等人的我眼看快迟到了...
所以一直摧daddy快点，结果被骂了一顿...
迟了~
11am的过了
要等2pm+，看见那没句点的队伍...
我决定不看了和宁Shan和Zwei去逛逛陪她们买鞋...
我们逛了满多鞋店，可是她们一双都没看中...
开始觉得无聊了...
后来我们到MCKY，她们终于买到了...
我们也在那遇到一件极为荒唐的事——“不能说的秘密”。
哈哈~~
大约4pm~
Zwei要回家了，我和宁Shan就搭KTM second round去TS meet 乃yin...
那个“聪明”的乃yin到了KLCentral竟然不会去TS...
够力的咯~~
GasOnline用餐，有够不爽的咯，错误连篇~
过后Gary，Xyang上完课后过来meet我们...
乃yin她们突然就聊起剪头发，Garyj就带她们到一间理发店剪...
一去到我就被她——那间店的hairstylist的头发吸引住了...
她很漂亮，可爱，她的头发很特别，超喜欢的...
超想剪她的发型，可是我前一天才剪了...
Haiz~
人家lenglui随便怎麽剪都一定好看的啦...
我呢，还是算了吧~
那间理发店的理发师满帅的~
乃yin迷上了那个帮她理发的理发师“王传一”。
一直赞人家帅噢~
花痴到~
乃yin剪了一头我们意想不到的发型，大家是目以待吧~
宁Shan的新发型也不错哦~
哈哈~
宁Shan的理发师也满可爱的，很多话讲~
她们说我很坏，句句顶住塞他~
之后feel到一些事情，心情突然很down了下来
拍大头贴都勉强的笑
回到家，又被“她”骂了一顿
真的很烦咯~
没心情不写了~

31/05~

2009-06-01T18:05:00.003+08:00

先在此祝我可爱的佩清生日快乐~~
祝你：永远快乐，青春美丽~~~

好久都没跟朋友逛街了...
刚好有朋友生日，大家约好到TS为寿星女佩清庆祝...
我，宁shan和Hchuang提前出发...
我们约好10am在ktm见...
怎知我和宁shan到了都还没看见前晚说9am就会到的家伙叻...
我们出街从来不等人的，而且最讨厌等人...
他却要我们等，而且还等的差不多1小时叻...
第一次就见识到他的利害...
还好今天人潮不多，否则排队都有够她等...
哈哈~
真巧在等他的时候，遇见joeling...
她本来都很白了的，还整身都穿白色，看起来更白了...
真另人羡慕的...
他到了后我们便出发了...
在火车，另我回忆起去年假期每天那赶火车去MV打工，放工又要挤火车的情景...
好想念好想念那一起工作的朋友，时光...
真的超开心的...
可能是太久没乘搭火车了，要转车都忘了...
还好有他...
好久都没有那种逛街不用记路的轻松了...
本想今天有他带路，我就可以罢工了...
为了找个鸡排，他带我们走了不少冤枉路...
上了楼又下，下了又上，总之就好像带我们游花园似的...
我的胃本来都有少少痛了，在加上酱走...
我的胃更痛的不行了，当务之急也只好忍...
还好那鸡排没另我失望...
现叫现炸得，满好吃的还很大份叻，而且很便宜RM6...
谢谢你的鸡排哦~~
今天买了很少东西，但却用了很多钱...
在Soda买了一件超不像我的风格的连身裤...
试这衣时，她说我穿得很可爱...
我很不习惯可爱用在我身上...
所以考虑了一会儿还是决定买下它吧...
最近不知怎莫的超喜欢灰色，喜欢到很夸张的程度...
在我眼里只看见它的存在...
就因为酱就成了他和她整天折磨我的point...
从很久之前我就觉得他和她很有默契...
经过今天后，我发现他们不只有默契是很有，还很有[夫妻相]呢...
（以上纯粹是我个人心声，并无他意）
哈哈~
今天满惨的... ！！！
除了他，用餐时又来多一个Alvin...
5年没见的老朋友...
真服了他，酱多年没见还是没变...
一见面就给我“见面礼”，我的头啊~~
还是那样淘气，喜欢找我吵嘴...
最过份的事他尽然和一个外人联手欺负我...
气死我了~
他的举动让我想起了我们许多以前回忆...
用餐中发生了一些小状况...
另我们的寿星女伤心...
X真的很过份咯，不哼一声就走了...
今天可是人家生日叻，一点面都不给，实在是太过份了...
还好有Elaine和Alvin的安慰，当然也少不了我啦...
每次人家哭，替面子一定是我的工作...
吃饱后，PChin，Elaine，Alvin，WJun，Hchuang，Lisa和我便去拍大头贴...
由于太多人，所以拍得有些乱...
之后因为他赶着回学校，他就和女朋友走先...
佩清和威骏也跟他们一起回...
本大算跟大伙回的...
他和她都不让我回，所以跟他们逛到10pm才回...
她买到朋友的礼物后，我们便再逛逛...
便陪那从我们到达就吵着要到打机场（我就讨厌的地方）玩的他去玩了一会儿...
我还是第一次看到他害羞的一面...
其实我知道他是很想玩那跳舞机，可是有俩个女生在玩着...
她们还满厉害的，怕出丑，所以不敢献丑...
我就讨厌男生扭扭捏捏的，我跑向前问她们，请求她们让他玩一回...
Ei~~他跳得也满不错啦，总算没浪费我的时间和牺牲...
哈哈~
虽然一直被她和他“zet”会有些不开心，但是算了吧...
难得出来玩嘛~~
今天满开心的~
我会永远记得今天的一切一切~
谢谢你们给的意见，虽然到最后我还是没买那件衣~~

她=宁shan
他=Hchuang
他=Alvin

悲剧..T.T~~

2009-05-30T00:12:00.001+08:00

放假咯~

终于有得好好休息了
之前忙着练球比赛，忙完比赛又忙考试。
真的忙的喘不过气来。
3个星期的考试终于挨过了~~
接下来就是狂玩的season。
我给自己的假期都给填得满满的。
一想到我的假期就兴奋死了。
昨天一考完试就跟朋友去GreenBox。
去到尽然没空包厢
我们也只好shopping咯
之后载了wwei回家就想去逛夜市的。

怎知..?!?!
在“花蝶恋”对面出路口，要过对面的路..
当我已确定可以过了，我才移动的..
当我过到一半时，一辆Toyota 飞快的向我驶过来..
我已经放慢了速度，X好像没看见似的撞向我..
事后，我们便到一旁..
X说，这是我的错还说今天一定要settle它..
之后还说什麽要去报警做什麽report之类的..
我便马上通知我dad帮忙咯..
X很没风度咯，听见我叫dad来，

X就说：“你叫人来啊，酱我也call我的人来。”
我dad到先，X直说我不对什麽的，问要怎样...?!
明明就是他撞我，还问怎样wor..
本以为X只叫几个人来..
哇老!!!!!!!!!!!!
X叫到整大班人，还越叫越多人，就连姨妈姑姐乡亲父老都叫来似的。
不但只是酱，X还叫了一个不知什麽来头的，说是交警之类的，Y先生。
[我真的打从心里写个服字给X]
那个Y简直多来的，问我一大堆什麽的，最后也不是说去做report。
后来回想下，那个Y不只是不是他的人来的，一直偏袒X说我错。
我不肯定我没错，但至少我肯定我有做好本分咯!!!
dad怕我和她吓着了，就说不用怕啦，是酱的，没什麽好怕的，花钱修修就没事了。
X那边的人说什麽晚点找人来看车什麽的，怎知没消息了。
气死我了啦!!!!!!!!!
当天可被mum修理得很惨，因为那“受伤”的是她的车。
但最可怜的还是她，被吓着了。哈~~
不知她还敢不敢坐我的车呢..?
哈哈~~~

[Xin茹往后驾驶一定要更小心哦~~ ]

今天车拿去修理了..
Dad说：“修理费RM1000+叻。”
心痛死我了，mum要我付~
wuwuwu~~T.T~

Gud nitex~~muackxx~~

无趣的人生~

2009-04-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

没有球的日子，整个人都好像没了人生乐趣似的。
每天都重复做同样的事情，上学，补习，吃，睡，就没其他事做了。
闷死了~
真怀念之前跟她们/他们一起练球的时刻。
起初打球对我来说，可说是有无都行的，但最后我才发现它已不知不觉的成为我生活中的习惯。
甚至可以说没了它，不行。
可能是水瓶座的关系，要求完美主义强，所以比赛一到我的精神几乎会崩溃，很压力，甚至还会在她们面前哭的叻。真的paiseh死~
我真的不能再酱情绪化了啊~
一路来我都处于最没有信心的状态里，因为我觉得我和她们差太远。所以很希望她们能给我少少的信任，我就有信心了。其实我要的鼓励，并不是比赛时口头的鼓励，而是从平时练球的行动。
我真的很感谢我的队友从一开始到现在都给了很多很多的鼓励和支持。
尤其是Cbeng啊~只要一听到我没信心，她就会骂我的，真的是我的“良师”肩“死党”。哈哈~
NyiN谢谢那天你骂醒了我，不然接下来的比赛，一定打得很烂。哈哈~谢谢你~
Lisa，谢谢她那天final的鼓励，那是她第一次也可能是最后一次给w我有那麽感动和温馨的支持了。
当然也不能少了谢她，Qwei ，她知道我的起球不好，还主动要跟我起，那天她真的给了我超多的信心和推动力。

还有Vivian，谢你比赛前天的那句话。Myee可说在我们team里就不会说话tam人的，但她会以行动给你支持。

还有那班可爱的小鬼头，Clynn，Pyee，Ssum，Jyee，谢谢你们的鼓励，我会永远记得你们的可爱。在比赛前给那调皮的Clynn，Pyee给搞哭了，真是~还好只有我们三个人懂是什么一回事（秘密）。Hehe~

很开心也很害怕~

Myee今天到我班找我，说有好消息告诉我~~~

我有份去MSSD练球叻~~

听了后真得超开心的~

谢你的好消息叻~~

本以为既然Wwei去，我就打算不去了，随然还不肯定有谁。Lisa和Myee就说去问问看，可是我真的很怕那答案不是我想要的，所以就没去问。真得很感谢Myee，她叻~

当时很高兴地去告诉Amy，LuLu，Hchuang。

真让人扫兴就是Hchuang的咯，说：“ANAANA，知道啦~

不爽咯~

都是Amy最好给了我一个充满推动力five~

哈~~

加油哦，xín茹，乃yín，宁shan，美yee~

Gambatehx yo~~